thedesire

2012-01-18T00:59:00.002+08:00

i wish we could have pei laoshi's technique class once a day even during the holidays.
i don't want to go back to zero and have to start again after two weeks of eating, sleeping and playing.

don't like feeling unfit :(

i feel like technique class is slowly picking up its pace in this winter term, and suddenly there is a two weeks break -.-

i'm glad to be back home for cny.
perfect timing for me to run away from all the crap thats happening in school.
am really tired from dealing with all the people, the gossips, the bias-ness..
is it that art-sy people have weird characters, maybe it's the people in hkapa, or is it just that this is the kind of environment that hong kongers grow up in.
why do people like to put others down so easily, what pleasure do you get in putting shame in other people, does that makes you feel superior to other people, does it really make you a better person?
studying here certainly trains my EQ more than IQ.

sometimes i really wonder if most of the people here really love to dance.

why can't i seem to take my mind off all these crap when i want to run away from it so much.
it's killing me

2012-01-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Happy wedding anniversary to mummy and daddy.
Love you so much <3

i wish school can be more taxing.
wish we have more to dance for dance 2.
can't help but to feel like we're really just the bunch of people that you can do without.
i like the movements though, its smooth, interesting and comfortable.
love contemp. i guess dancing contemp is one of the reasons that makes me wanna dance this so badly.

miss dancing dance.

technique classes is certainly getting more difficult
but i really do wish we could have 2 technique classes in one day.
i know it'll be tiring, but so worth it.

things haven't been quite smooth sailing these few days.
i don't want to feel like i'm right at the bottom again trying to climb my way up.
i wish i could really stop studying strife, and learn to live the unexamined life.

if only life can be as magical as musicals.

2012-01-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

Had an awesome weekend.
adventurous and tiring, but really worth every second of it.

Spending the weekend with the family and cousins in midst of the school term is somehow especially heartwarming.
perhaps its because school isn't going very desirable at the moment and i'm just good at running away.
anyway, thankful that this weekend allowed me to escape from reality for a moment where school can be thrown to the back of my head.
even for just 24 hours, i'm deeply grateful.

i'm so looking forward to chinese new year where we would all get together and have fun.
no gossips, no judging.
just plain sincere people.
everything is so simple when we're together. even happiness can be so simple.

school. friends. everything is falling apart.
bit by bit and i can't seem to be in control of anything.

2012-01-03T19:54:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling unhappy.
just the first day of school and i feel like my heart has been stabbed so deep.
it's been like this for 4 freaking years. always in your shadows, always nowhere, also not belonging in every freaking group.
comforting myself has been such a routine i'm tired of it really.
i just so tired of it.

2011-12-10T12:07:00.001+08:00

我想逃避
不想坚强的去面对

不甘心的是你对我的教导，根本都不符合你最后对我的评语。
怎么可以随随便便就那么轻易的指责我所付出过的努力。
我可以是个烂透的舞者，但我觉得你身为老师，最起码的就是尝试着帮我改进，
为什么你可以平时都说我做对的，到最后的一天却可以说我这一整个学期都没做好，
最不甘心的是你说你已经说了我很多次，
请允许我冒昧的说句：拜托，你哪有
难道你平时上课对我说的那些都是在骗我吗，让我傻傻的相信，我身体所体会到的东西是对的，但其实我根本就是错到不行。这是什么教学方法啊
就这样，你可以编出那么多根本都没发生过的事情，然后把我一脚踢到那最不起眼的地方

我很惊讶，因为我真搞不懂。
我真蠢，作为一名学生，我是真心的相信我所有的老师，包括你，相信你们的专业知识，相信你们做得东西是为我们好，但现在，我怎么会有被骗的感觉呢
对不起，这样的教学方法，我发现我这一学期什么都学不到
你真认为这是我应得的吗？

2011-12-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

失望。
怎么样都轮不到我
其实我会吃醋，
其实我会在意，
其实我很想有人相信我能够承担这个责任，
其实我很想有这个机会。

有时候，被宠真好，
有时候，很希望会有人能服我一把，
帮我铺铺路也好，帮我争取个机会也好，

欲望总是变成失望。
这一路走来，真辛苦，怎么连一次机会都轮不到我
这心情，真的很难受

第四年了，我真的那么差劲吗，
我不想，我不服气
每次发生这些事，我总告诉自己，会有更好的，有一天机会会到手的

但....哎，我越来越不相信了

我想要的那一点点信任，
真的有那么难吗？

2011-12-07T21:52:00.001+08:00

have been procrastinating tracing trends essay since forever. but i really don't want to do it. i don't even know where to start looking for infomation and where to start writing about. okay i shall leave it to the weekend.

science presentation tmr.
korean presentation nxt wed
italian presentation next fri (spoils the fun of last day of sch -.-)
wendy chu's essay due next wed!!! (OMG)

yea为最后的这几份功课努力，撑下去！

adapting to changes can be quite tiring at times,
but it may be the best thing to do for the time being
sometimes i just want to be able to talk to someone who doesn't judge me for my flaws

I am dreaming tonight of a place i love
even more than i usually do
and although i know
its a long road back

2011-12-06T22:06:00.001+08:00

love christmas.
as far as i can remember, every christmas is spend submerged in a pool of warmth
i can't wait to go back to my loved ones.
i'm so excited i'll be smiling on the plane back to singapore :)

less than two more weeks and i'll be in a totally different environment
somewhere where the people are true and sincere
a place where my heart will always be
a place where i call home

i'll be home for christmas :)

for now, its just homework, more homework, and presentations.

2011-12-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

不想这个学期结束
不想停止练功，不想在两个星期的假期里退功，好不容易有点希望慢慢的在提升自己，真不想回来winter term又要从新开始，而winter term的课难免也会比平常hea，
不想那么快到第二学期，因为我知道第二学期会眨眼就过，然后我就快毕业了。如果我没法做个演员，那我宁愿永远做个学生。

虽然功课堆成山，但当学生的感觉真好，很珍惜每一天的课，再累也值得。
如果我们基训课没那么多人就更好了，呵呵

gonna have a packed weekend
going to shenzhen on saturday
have rehearsal from 1pm-7pm on sunday.
and i haven't do the 起承转合essay, omg. and wendy chu's essay. OMG.

wanna watch birdhouse factory, didn't manage to get the free tics, but i hope students have discount!
need to find a time to go watch it. maybe next week ahaha

tomorrow got italian test.
Io sto malissimo

2011-11-30T19:41:00.001+08:00

finished school especially early today
its really a once in a lonnggggggg time.
how often can i see the sun when school has ended.

i know this leaves me no excuse to say that i have no time to do all the endless homework
but i really don't want to write essays already.
sorry but i'm not gonna do my homework tonight!

i rather have videoing every class.
tomorrow we are videoing centre stuffs, hope i don't blank out.

its so weird to be home so early.

最近感觉身体使不上劲，整个人很重，肌肉都很紧。

when is she gonna change our position in the centre.
i really cannot do full out for all the side traveling because i'm really less than one metre away from the piano -.-
seriously. and i super cannot see what pei laoshi is doing infront, there is just too many people that i have to try to look past -.-
we should have studio 6 permanently.

感觉好陌生，真的变了太多了。
这样反反复复的应付，你也应该累了吧
可能是我心里还存在着万分的不甘愿
因为我一直以来都相信我们曾经拥有的友情是永恒的，
曾经拥有的依赖是温馨的，一点也不过分
但变化。。。是那么的奇妙，转眼间，就可以发生
朋友好像是为了“朋友"这两个字而做朋友
话题少不用紧，但当在沉默中就能感到不自在时，我发现，事情的转变有多大

2011-11-29T22:04:00.001+08:00

Haven't felt this tired during technique class already.
It may be the nerves today, or the lack of sleep(but i didn't sleep late)
but i was tired halfway during barre already.
made some silly mistakes during videoing technique today, but it was great fun,
to be able to work and sweat like this, its satisfaction.
wish we could have 2 technique classes everyday (with break in between though)

i think its so amazing to learn and feel about your body.
i don't want to be left back in the class anymore,
i wish we could change positions during barre and centre once every 2-3 days,
i don't wanna be squeezed in the corner, i don't wanna have to move myself every 10 seconds so that i can see what the teacher is demonstrating.
i'm short,so please put me infront for my own sake.

had advising with pei laoshi yesterday,
didn't really expect anything out of it, but i don't know what or how did i feel like i wanted to open up to talk about myself, and sitting side by side with my classmates talking about things like these, it feels like we're more than just schoolmates, we're people who will take time to learn more about each other not because we have to, but because we want to. I like this class of girls that we have, i like eatting together, shopping together and talking together(despite the over-bitching of some stuffs) when pei laoshi asked me “你觉不觉得你们五个现在感觉是比较一起的了”，i really felt like “一直都是” because as far as i can remember, we've always thought about each other's feelings whenever we do something.

There are just so many tests and assignments due, i think i need more brain to complete them.
I have no idea how to go about doing 动作起承转合的用力方法，don't know how to complete an essay discussing the 10 year development of a professional dance company, don't know how to survive the many role play and presentations for korean, italian and science. and i'm so gonna die for tomorrow's korean test.

its almost the end of this semester, but school is still as complicated as ever.
I can't seem to manage to take things one step at a time, because my pace is too slow in this fast paced environment.

wish i could be a smarter dancer

2011-11-23T22:17:00.001+08:00

I suppose everyone isn't exactly having a good time in school recently.
so many things have happened. and lately there has been far too many quarrels and bitching going around the dance school

lessons have been back to normal this week.
feels weird because i do miss production week.
舞台的感觉真好。

好想天天只上专业课，再累也好。
不要再上文课了，怎么那么多功课啊。

the end of Dance 1 is a sign that the semester is coming to an end.
and i feel like i still have so much to work on and improve during technique, folk and shen yun.
I don't want the semester to end with myself being at this standard. 现在真的很想跳舞跳到累死，也不想早点回家做功课。

已经差不多一个学期了，都还觉得基训课要求好高，我想达都达不到。我已经努力紧，就算get到好慢，都希望裴老师你不好放弃我，多点帮我，你劳我都好，吾好吾理我。

听日录影希望会过得顺利，千期吾好紧张啊李瑞敏！

2011-11-21T20:31:00.001+08:00

Dance 1 is finally over
would be lying if i said i don't miss it.

The production week really passed faster than i thought.
even though i feel that we do a lot of sitting down and sloppy rehearsals,
but to be honest, i really do feel that our final product is something that is worth the lyric theatre and time of our audiences.
i really love how traditional and old fashion this dance is, and i'm really glad that i have the opportunity to be part of this piece with all the fun people to go crazy with. i'll miss being able to seriously play onstage and laugh from the heart. I love how united and encouraging we are onstage. I know outside of the stage some of us may have opinions about each other, but i'm really happy that whenever it comes to performing and dancing, we're all a team and we'll help each other out, leave personal problems aside, and we'll do our best, for the audience.
I may not have as much opportunities as the guys or some of the seniors to play a part in this piece. but i'm satisfied. and i'm contented with what i get to dance.
I remember how lousy i felt after the first performance when i fell from the ariel cartwheel because i was really doing fine for all the rehearsals the whole week before that. I know i wasn't stable to begin with but at the very least i was stable for the whole week before the actual performance, and to think that i fell during the performance was quite a blow to me. It's painful on the knees, yes. but its even more painful on the heart. it was more of a disapointment than anything else.
I must be really down on my luck, to have injuries just before performances, first the sprained ankle for cadence. now this. the second and third performance was better, but i still wasn't doing it right for the ariel. It must really be my problem, i guess for the two days of performance, the only thing that worried me is the ariel and it sucks to have to feel this way. I really honestly feel like the ariel can cost me my satisfication for the performance.
I tried so many times before the final performance to make sure that i was warmed enough because i knew that it was my final chance to make it right. and seriously, i've never ever felt so much pressure for any performance before. I know that if you look at the performance as a whole, the ariel is nothing and is not even worth a cent, but as a dancer, it is so important to me and i couldn't get my mind off it. I just couldn't bring myself to enjoy the backstage fun when i know that after the three performances i still didn't do it well. it sucks.
but i really really wanted this opportunity and i really don't want it to go to waste. I remember right before the final performance, i couldn't stop thinking about it at the sidewings and i just couldn't calm myself down. i want it so badly.
and when its finally time to go onstage, to say the truth, i was really really stressed, not scared, but stressed. performing was fine because we've done it so many times that it really comes naturally, and when it was just 5 seconds before the ariel, i was really praying so hard, so hard , so hard.
then when i just ran and jump, i'll never forget how it felt in the air, and landing with enough time and height. my heart just burst with excitement. It sounds stupid, but i'm really proud of it. and i swear i could just burst out with tears of joy and excitement at that very moment.
I'm really happy and thankful. It may just be a stupid ariel cartwheel,and it may seem like i'm making a mountain out of a molehill, but to me, it feels like i've challenged and conquered myself as a dancer on my own basis, and i finally managed to complete it onstage for an actual performance. Thank you so so much. I really leave this dance with no regrets :)

These few days has gotten me so hyped up about learning anddancing. I really wanna work so much harder for school and dance classes, Imiss pei laoshi's scolding and sarcarsm really, and i feel like i need all thehelp i can get from the teachers in school. because really, i know they meanwell.

I was really too foolish in the past to feel that they'reonly capable of scolding and complaining. I really hope our classes get morestrict and that the teachers don't give up on me. 我真的很想学习，求求你们不要放弃我!

2011-10-31T22:35:00.001+08:00

One more week to production week.
had a lovely weekend.

hope this week will be more dancing that i can take.
hope my leg doesn't get in the way anymore.

wish i were more talented.
i know i'm for the idea of improving on my own basis,
but yes i still do dream of being like an over acheiver.
and i still wish that my improvement can be a greater leap.
i feel like i'm hopping on the spot and my body isn't being any smarter as the days passes

llloooooaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddssssssssssssss of homework and tests these few weeks.
i'm clueless about some of them, while the others just need a lot of time, effort and commitment.

we finally finished our dance 1 piece.
i think it'll be quite nice if we do it nicely.
i'm a little down about my change of partner, but i know that i'm being selfish just by thinking like that.
its just that its so near to the performance date and he still doesn't have enough strength to hold even himself.
but i trust that things will improve, we just need to practise more together.
i dislike having this feeling of uncertainty when we dance together because we're really not 100% stable. yet (i hope).
but the most important thing when we dance together is trust. so i know i have to trust him, and he will trust me too.
we don't want to ruin the show. we don't want to be taken out.

technique classes is becoming more challenging and i feel like i shouldn't be in this class based on my stupidity mentally and phsically. but i'll give it a shot nevertheless

I need to be more thick skinned.

2011-10-26T23:39:00.000+08:00

那些年，我们一起追过的女孩.

Awesome
I miss secondary school.
the innocence, the laughter, the friends, the memories.

School has been slowly picking up with the slow but still in progress recovery of my leg.
I can't wait for production week with the stop of academic classes for more rehearsals.
I still have second thoughts about going for rehearsals, but at least i don't feel damn shitty about myself yet, which is a good thing considering i'm me.

technique classes haven't been much happy ponies recently, and i'm kind of nervous about class tomorrow because i can't turn right for nuts and i don't know how to help myself other than to just keep trying with the voice of you saying "还没有，没有对" (stares away from you with finger pointing at you) at the back of my head.

having an urge to take contemporary classes for quite some time already. Wanna take a stress-free, happy, laughy, sweaty contemp class.

2011-10-24T22:26:00.001+08:00

the start of another week.
thankful that my leg is feeling better, but i still can't jump a lot.
technique today was feeling more of my body and i enjoyed it.
love feeling the sweat run down my back and having warm blood running through my veins.

shenyun was nice and weird in the sense that the queen is treating me especially nice today and using her angelic voice to speak to me, i feel like something bad might happen because of the sudden nice-ness. but i'm appreciating the politeness at the moment, and i feel like it's so much easier to understand and learn. i hope it lasts, i hope it lasts!

academic wise, this week seems to be a more relaxed week with no tests and homework needed to be handed in. although next week will be busy with choreographic showing and portfolio, i guess i'm gonna choose to just enjoy the moment as it is and think about the other stuffs later.

I think i'm usually quite tolerable with favouritism because its inevitable that it exists in this industry.
but i've never felt so strongly about it until repertory this year. it really makes me question the rehearsal director as a person. i'm starting to have 反感 towards rehearsals no matter how much i love the music and style of this dance. but whatever. right now i just pray that i will do a good job on my part and i really pray that nothing will go wrong during the remaining rehearsal and during the performance. I hope that we'll all dance as a team and work together to make it happen, especially this dance requires so much 默契. I hope i'll have a great time dancing it and i pray that continuous joy and laughter will stay together with us throughout the rehearsals and performances.

having three technique classes straight in a row tomorrow morning, hope that all goes well and that i'll remember to enjoy the process of learning :)

2011-10-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

may the weekend be a good rest for my leg

thankful that today went on quite well for me.
despite the one hour bitching the teachers had about me T.T

enjoyed technique class today, because i felt like i could finally get on with working on myself.
my leg still hurts especially if we do too many jumps or turns on that leg, but other than that, it was less of a hindrance for me as compared to trying to walk for the past few days.
i really pray that it gets well soon, really wanna go all out on turning and jumping soon.

working with the teachers the few days has been more of a challenge for me.
arghhhhh.
don't wanna think about it anymore.

thankful that today is a day of feeling better, physically and mentally.

thank god.

love working and improving on my own basis.
wish the teachers could help more and judge less.

2011-10-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

最近，眼泪流得实在是太多了。
我忍不住，想大哭一场，
想有人抱住我，让我大大声声地哭一场

今天用尽心思上了一堂课，
但却被忽略了，现在的生活，我真的很怕面对
一次又一次的失望，失落，我不知道我还能承受多少。
不久前，什么都好好的在进展，
怎么会在短短的几天内就变成这样

明天的排舞
我真的希望我不会再面对另一个打击。
就算是我求求你了。我的心已经受够了。

我不知道我下一步应该怎么走了。
李瑞敏，你真的要争气。、
哭也哭过了，但问题还是存在的。

对，我还没到想放弃的时候。
明天，再努力！

2011-10-19T22:11:00.001+08:00

当我发现连个小跳也跳不起，落地也会失控
我心，真的沉下来了。

好不开心，好难过。
心里很着急，着急着复原，但痊愈是需要时间的
我的心却等不了，舞蹈也等不了
这种心情，快把我给逼疯了。

我就快没力量用微笑来撑住每一天，因为我并不快乐。

“我就是看不出你喜欢跳舞，喜欢学习。”
“你这样，跳中国舞不行，去跳现代舞还可以。”

我真的有那么糟糕吗。
No offence, but i really think i deserve to be here more than a lot of other people in the school.
重点是，我对跳舞的热忱，一定不输她们。
我并不是因为自大才会这样说，我是很确定我不是来这里混的，你为什么就是不明白呢？

表面上的积极，对你真的那么重要吗？那这样，跟对你拍马屁有什么分别
不常问问题，不代表我没在想，没在尝试。
在你眼中，有资格上舞台中间的人，也应该都是你所谓“积极，肯学” 的人。

对不起，那我知错了。

2011-10-18T22:00:00.004+08:00

永远也不想再坐堂
看着别人上我应该也在上的课，但我身体却无法跳舞，
那种感觉...心酸得不得了

每次听坐堂的同学说，坐堂会想睡觉，
但我发觉，其实坐堂不会想睡，眼泪只会不停的流下
心里万分辛苦

我好想好想跳舞。
真的好想好想

舞跳多了，可能会麻木。
但一伤了，就能够更加体会得到跳舞对我有多么重要。

我真的觉得人生很喜欢玩弄我
机会难得一到手，下一刻就那么轻易的在手中流失。
伤心，我还能忍。
但失望，我受不了。

这种心里上的折磨，我体会到了
现在可以停止了吗？

2011-10-17T21:36:00.001+08:00

心情低落到极点。

2011-10-15T10:42:00.000+08:00

The weekend.
I wish i could just really let my mind relax for a while after everything thats happened this week.
I don't want to have to deal with the teachers and seniors.
Its so tiring my goodness.

There hasn't been any real joy in learning for too long.
well if this is the kind of learning that has to be enforced on me by my teachers and seniors.
then fine, I just have to clarify that everyone has their own way of learning and this is definately not how i do it. give me some time and i may jolly well be able to adapt to yours.

its never right no matter how i do it.

I'm glad that as stressful and fustrating it may be to take technique class,
i really do think it has progressed to be better than how it started out.
I like the things are we're doing in class, i just think that i'm too stupid to be able to catch up.
may the tough times be over soon.

盛老师说“你自己都不相信自己，你要怎么让别人相信你啊”
hais, i don't know how to put my feelings down in words.

2011-10-13T21:27:00.002+08:00

can't wait to watch Wicked the musical
i'm glad i could go to sleep last night feeling better than the day.
I'm so thankful for friends like the both of you.

finally friday again tomorrow.
This week hasn't been a smooth ride, but i'm hoping things will slowly fall back into place again
Its hard being on your own, in school. in class.
Its hard, but i'll try.

2011-10-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

Its raining heavily outside as i'm sitting in my room
i may be safe from the rain thats pouring outside,
but inside me the rain is pouring just as heavily.

I feel like i'm on the verge of breaking down trying to adapt to everything thats happened this year.
Its too much for me to take psycologically.
I can't catch up, and its not only fustrating, its demoralising as well.
I'm running behind everyone and panting so crazily i really want to stop running but i can't, if not i'll just be left behind.
sometimes i wish someone in the front will just give me a shout out and encourage me to keep on going.
i can't talk to myself anymore, i'm really not gonna convince myself.

“老师们都说你们这一班都好像笨笨的”
“你们太乖了”

i don't whether to laugh or cry.

2011-10-10T21:49:00.001+08:00

I feel like a mediocre
I so badly wanna at least be good in something.
I'm just walking around the hallways of the academy feeling like a nobody.

Its so diffucult to excel in something.
I don't have to be at the top, but i really wanna at least be amongst the better ones.
Sometimes i hate this competitiveness in me, it spoils everything really.
I enjoy dancing, and many a times, i really don't want this competitiveness in me to affect me.

I bother, I get affected, and I'll get jealous.

I hate this about myself. really.

I wanna dance on my own basis, improve on my own basis. and i want to feel proud and happy when i've done my best.
but no.
i'll always be hungry for more even though i know that at that very moment, i've done the best that i could.

It couldn't be any better even if you turn back time, but i'm always not satisfied.
I'm not satisfied with myself.

I always feel like i need to take the initiative to fight for things that i want.
but seriously Li Ruimin. what makes you think that you're so good.
Hah. ironic. I don't even think i'm good enough, and yet i constantly feel like i need to prove to people that i'm good.

Sometimes i really hope opportunities will come to me and i promise i'll work hard. I really will.
Yes even though i'll open up my stupid mouth to sell myself, but hey i'm not comfortable doing that okay.

I hate this struggle within me. dancing with the seniors makes me feel like i don't have a place anywhere because i'm just a peuny arrogant junior.

It matters to me.

i feel like nothing good has come out of this school year yet.
and it just gets me down.
To put on a face that says everything is fine and school is great, hais. stop it please. I can't even stand myself.

today during 水袖, there was a moment where i felt like i really am dancing and i just wanna keep on going. i was surprised, because i didn't think i will ever feel like that in 水袖, but i did. and nothing the emperess dowager said today can make me feel like punching her. omg. pure magic.

I feel like a loner in school.
I don't feel like i don't have friends. I just feel like....
I don't belong in any clique of friends. and really i'm just a back up plan.

I really wanna work hard for Dance 1
I wanna work hard with everyone.
But why do i feel like we're all scattered everywhere during rehearsals.
It doesn't even feel like we have a common goal to acheive something for our piece.

As tiring as it may be for last year's Dance 1
at least i really feel like the 12 of us are working really hard together to make it happen for our piece.

Its often the rehearsal process that i enjoy most when we're preparing for the performance. Like how i really like rehearsing for cadence with the huay kuan people. Even though our performance kind of suck shit, but i really really really enjoyed and love the whole process. It was really filled with sweat and tears that were totally worth it.

I hope this Dance 1 will be like that (the rehearsing part i mean, not the performance suck shit part)
I really hope.

Its getting more and more difficult to push myself.
Its so diffcult oh my goodness.
I feel like i need to learn how to dance all over again.
Its really difficult to keep encouraging myself and believing in myself when i just wanna look away seeing myself dance in the mirror.

but still
Life is good.
I just need to learn how to climb up with more ease and not let myself slide back down.

2011-10-03T23:28:00.005+08:00

Life has changed

i'm not very sure if i'm enjoying it, but i guess it still hasn't killed me, yet.

Finally a fourth year student, its so weird sometimes when i think of it.
I feel like i've been in school for so long but i've not learnt a lot.
well experienced a lot maybe, but my body hasn't learned much
going for pei laoshi's class everyday sure makes it even more obvious

i don't like it. i don't like havening friends who are just hi-bye and maybe occasionally some juicy gossips here and there
i don't like going for technique classes and shenyun classes where you aren't able to learn from your mistakes. i don't like the kind of pressure and judgement that you give and asume that you are always right. hello, we shouldn't be practising traditional pedagogy here...especially in apa.
i wonder why must you talk in circles when the point that you are trying to make can be said so bluntly.

i'm sorry i just can't adapt to your style of learning, but i'm trying, really.

please don't let it be mind games year 2 all over again. it sucks.

i truly believe that i could learn so much better last year because you weren't there to poke your nose into everything. even though folk can be boring at times but its so funny i feel like i can ask whenever i'm unsure or in difficulty.

i'm not scared of you, i just feel like you never seem to understand where i'm coming from whenever i approach you for help. you don't ever trust anyone do you. oh wait, i forgot you have your beloved boys to make your teaching life so much more worth it. sorry i'm a student student who doesn't know how to learn. thank you for telling me where i suck at and not try to help. thanks

last saturday, lumi laoshi asked me, "瑞敏，你怎样了？上课还上得开心吗？"
ha.ha.ha. i don't know how to answer her.
even though i felt like last year was just a year of technique class filled with forced turn out and various methods of making your body more prone to injuries, but i feel like at the very least, my body movement has been acknowledged, right or wrong, at least our communication is clear.

but its been one month, with technique classes every school day, and yet, i feel like i cannot even decribe the way to go about doing a single movement in our class and which muscle to use and where is all the 线 in our body, and all the chimalogy about where to 松 and 提

i need help.

教学法is just another big headache. i seriously don't understand why you kept emphasizing that its normal and alright to make mistakes when in actual fact you just judge and shoot back at me whenever mistakes are made.
i really want to go to class to learn and not be tested even before i learn
i don't expect you to spoonfeed me, i just need some guidance.

渐渐的
我没冲劲了，怎么办？

2010-08-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

its weird that i'm gonna start my third year in APA soon.
went to school today for some orientation thing and its great seeing everyone (okay almost everyone cos so many people didn't come-.-)
Somehow every year feels different with people leaving APA and new people coming in too.

There are SOOOO many foreigners in APA this year, 5 new students from Singapore (okay actually 3 cos the other two are not Singaporeans who studied in Singapore before coming)
So that means more familiar faces haha.

There is stream meeting tmr before school really starts on wednesday. I hope this year will be fun and better than last year. Please let it be better than last year.

So i'm at home now waiting for Zixin to come back, i don't know what time she'll be back though. I miss her :)

I miss Singapore so much already, i miss being able to be with my family and having my heart at ease. I do miss all the warmth that Singapore brings. Somehow i feel thankful that i still have "Cadence" so i will be able to go back to Singapore even if it is only for that 4 days.

So today was just doing registration and slacking around in school, then walking around causeway bay with elizabeth.

there are just these people in your life where you can just keep quiet and not talk to each other yet still not feel awkward. And you can just sit down at some random place talking about random things for hours and not feel bored.

Life in Hongkong may not be the best but at the very least, i still have someone who'll listen to my crap and troubles. I know i'm lucky to even be in HKAPA, i know that i'm lucky that more and more people from Singapore are coming here.

I know i'm lucky, I know i'm lucky, i just gotta keep reminding myself and not wallow in self pity.

The grass is always greener on the other side eh?

:)

2010-02-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

5 more days till i go home!
i can't wait for tmr's chinese folk class and wed's technique skills class to be overrrrrrrrrr
the class i look forward to the least. for the time being hahah

the weekend has been really nice. I love spending time with my mother.
Even though it rained heavily the whole day yesterday, it didn't dampen my mood at all.
We didn't do anything special exactly. just walked around hongkong, went to eat lots of good food, sat around together at home doing nothing, caught a movie too.

The time has been short, but i really cherish every single minute of it.

she went home today, but i shall not complain too much because i'll be going back to Singapore this saturday. I CAN'T WAIT!!!

okay but still got lots of work and things to be done before going home. must finish doc and tech and go through folk + shen yun + tech skills.

i'm tired.
i don't know why, school has been tiring and after school i just want to come back home to rest.
i feel really anti-social during this period of time and i think all my classmates will soon stop talking to me because i'm being such an outcast in school. I don't know why i'm like that and i don't know what exactly is my problem but i hope i don't affect the people around me with my usual moodiness in school.

i can tell that each and everyone of my classmates in school are trying their best to stay happy and lively despite the tiring schedule that we have and sometimes i wish i could be like them. joke around, laugh at stupid things and do stupid things together, but why am i stopping myself from being like that? i don't know..i'm just.....not in the mood.

I'm going crazy and i think no one can help me but myself.

i'll try i'll try. Okay i'll try.

I've been a bad friend to my best friend recently too. I haven't been spending much time with her and i'm not there when she needed someone by her side. I'm really sorry. I don't know what is wrong with me.

and i don't know what to say to anyone anymore

2010-02-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

have been trying to pass these few days as fast as i can,
trying not to think too much about home too.

somehow school has become so mundane.
i'm just repeating the same thing everyday.
walking to school, attending classes, walking home.
i'm not exactly happy, but i'm not THAT sad either.

i just need something new and exciting to hype me up a little.
i think i've been a really bad tempered girl recently and i'm so sorry to all my friends who had to put up with me. which is why i don't talk so much sometimes because i think i'll just piss everyone off if i say something wrong again.

there is dance day at yuen long this saturday and initially i was going to perform for it, but today brenton said that i can't dance because i'm not a local student. and my heart just sank when i heard it because after yesterday's rehearsal for dance day, i began to look forward to it. I was so looking forward to tomorrow's rehearsal and saturday's performance.

its like the moment i think of it, my mood felt a little better because it was something different for once and even though i was feeling so tired to take technique class and rehearsal today, i told myself that at least i get to go for a fun rehearsal tmr and perform site specific on saturday at the dance day for HKAPA. it managed to get me to focus on my tired body to work through those exercises.

but now i'm just so sianed that everything is so screwed and nothing ever seem to work out for me. I'll still be going for technique+contemp+repertory tmr as usual...doing the things that i can never seem to do properly.

My mum is coming to hongkong today and she'll be reaching in about an hour or so.
I'm really happy that she is here and i wish i could spend more time with her really.
I don't know what we'll do, where we'll go, but i'm happy being with her.

listening to corrinne may's songs reminds me of the times back in Singapore.
sitting in the SBS bus going home at night.

I'm finally going back to Singapore next saturday.
I may not sound excited, but inside me, i'm secretly excited to be home.

2010-01-22T11:43:00.004+08:00

i'm in the com lab now waiting for contemp to start 30 mins later.
hope we'll do fun stuffs for class later hahah, may contemp this semester be full of nice contempish movemements.

just had technique class in the morning and elizabeth watched class cos she is having a really bad flu.
haha i think it is good that once in a while people sit class cos you can see how your classmates are actually doing and you can give some feedbacks from a friend's point of view.

omg we learnt this really fast turns zhu he and some li4 zhu he thing.
i cannot catch up lah, its too fast and i haven't even prepare yet have to do pirouettes liao.
SO KANCHIONG LOR! dance like auntie like that.
how to do this for exam you tell me.

anyway yesterday night i went to watch zheng yuan chang in the stage drama.
it was such a loooooong performance sia, halfway through i was like..is this ever gonna end..
but towards the end it was okay lah. I think that the whole drama is actually very well-acted and professional, it is just me who wasn't paying attention at some parts so i didn't really get into the whole play.
it ended really late and i reach home late too, so i'm quite sleepy today :(

at least today is friday and there isn't school during the weekend! hehehe.

elizabeth is using the com beside me and she is smiling to herself for no reason.
SHE IS ADDICTED TO "AUTHMN'S CONCERTO". LIKE REALLY REALLY REALLY ADDICTED LOR.

and she is ignoring me all the time cos all she can think about is her drama HAHAHAH.
okay i shall not be mean.
i still love her :D

omg there is shen yun and rep and rehearsal later too!
all of them are the classes that i'm scared of. HOPE I DON'T DIE IN SHEN YUN PLEASEEEEEEE.

okay must keep on going,
today is the last school day of the week.
MUST HANG IN THERE LI RUIMIN! :D

2010-01-20T20:12:00.003+08:00

this morning elizabeth told me that its the middle of the 4th week already.
for a moment i thought that time would pass quite fast, but then i thought for a while and i realised that that is not even half of the time left before we go back.
So we aren't even half way there....

class today was quite tiring in the morning, we had our first technique skills class with CC and it was just really tiring to keep having to shou1 this and that and stop forcing me to force my turn out lah, i have really bad turn out okay and i'm already working on it, i just don't want to force it anymore cos i can feel my knees are going to die on me soon.

technique skills and chinese technique felt like two chinese technique class today, when we were doing barre at chinese technique i was already quite sianned that we have to do plies and tendus again.

i'm so weak i can't find my back. and how to do the xiong1 yao1 thing on the floor??!? its so difficult cos i can't feel which strength i should use lah. and everyone seem to be doing it effortlessly.

had chinese folk after that. hua1 gu3 deng1 can be quite fun to do sometimes, but i think i cannot get the feng1 bai 2 liu3 dong4 lv4 properly. someone teach me please!!!!!!!!!

composition class was a talk+video by graeme hahaha..i'm so thankful that we get to sit down and listen to people talk and watch video. at least we don't have to do all the weird head-tail cross-lateral etc. things.

there is choreographic showing next tues and wed and i am SO NOT PREPARED LAH.
i don't want to disappoint my choreographers :(
there are so many steps to remember and i feel that i can't do them properly, especially mak's piece. I'm just not that good lah, and i wonder how arthur is able to manipulate the handkerchief and do all the cool stuffs.

i feel so bad because i cannot do so many of them and it really restricts him from choreographing movements that he wants. i think he regrets choosing me and he'll never choose me again in the future :(

ahhhh why is everything so difficult this year??!?!!?
I.CANNOT.MANAGE.OKAY

I want to be optimistic and feel motivated to improve and nail all the choreo pieces and classwork and rep, but my mood has been going down and down and i just can't seem to do it. nothing that i'm doing in school now is okay and it just sucks to feel this way lah.

seeing my classmates slowly improving and managing everything, i'm so far behind them and i just can't catch up anymore.......

2010-01-18T21:19:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of semester 2 offcially.
I kind of miss the winter term life now that all our lessons are so packed.

Monday is super packed with so many dance classes, rehearsal etc.
I don't know how i can tahan the weeks to come.
even our yaye-can-go-home-early-on-friday is gone because we have rehearsals for huang2 he2 now.
hahahah billy sir looked at our time table and said that this semester we have the full worth of our school fees hahah.

at least today wasn't that bad because we have a really slack contemp class due to advising and for LMA it was mostly introduction.

I feel like i've lost everything in technique class and its so weird because i've been taking technique classes for 2 weeks already and today my body totally felt like i haven't danced in 1 month :(

I can't feel the muscles when i dance and everything just seem so loose. I want to find my technique back!!!!!

and omg caiying laoshi say my face got rounder :(
sian diao i want to cry liao lor.

everything is falling apart.

i really hope these 4 weeks will be progressive PLEASEEEEE

its ONLY the first day and i'm already so upset about so many things.
I really don't know how to keep myself motivated for the next 4 weeks.
and i think its me but i really don't feel like i'm leading THE life when i'm school.
I can't bring myself to be hyperactive when i'm around my classmates and everything just seem to dull and heavy :(

after school i just want to go home and do nothing.

oh yea, Zixin and i were thinking of moving out and we're currently looking around at some houses because the one that we're staying in now is kind of expensive lah.
although i can say that i'm really really happy with the place i'm living in now, i feel like it is the only place i can feel comfortable in Hongkong and i felt like i've settled into this house.
but if we have to move, i'll still move lah, since Zixin is paying so much now and it is kind of a burden for her family.

I just want to call home everyday and talk to my mother.
Hope she'll come faster and i'll go back faster too.

2010-01-15T15:54:00.003+08:00

it been sooooo long since i last blogged

today is the last day of winter term and there is still 4 more weeks of normal school till i get to go home for chinese new year.
i really really can't wait!!!!!

well winter term has been kinda slackish because we only have so few classes, but i like it that we get to end around lunch time and then after that going out with elizabeth to have lunch and slacking through the whole afternoon talking away about i can't remember what we talked about.

it feels so nice because i feel like i have enough time to rest for the classes the next day and there isn't so much stress about all the folk classes..shen yun...etc.

we had mostly yoga and technique classes.
well yoga isn't really yoga cos it's masterstretch and it is really painful and xin1 ku3 for me okay.
but at least it helps me to stretch a little for the technique class following after.
its kind of nice to have different technique teachers once in a while too :)

I'M GONNA HAVE TWITTER :D
cos elibird asked me to have then I dowan
then ivan ask me to have then i sign up
(its obviously elibird talking here -.-)

i'm waiting for ebird's com beside mine to load spirited away,
and i know can watch liao, i just don't want to watch now lah.
i can tell elibird is getting very bored though.

i like the whole atmosphere in the school's computer lab
the computer is very fast and i always feel like i can spend the whole afternoon here rather than using the com at home for the whole afternoon.

okay i think spirited away is not loading....

we're in the computer lab slacking now, waiting for the others to finish their classes cos we're gonna have steamboat together at my house tonight!!
and elizabeth is staying over at my house tonight :)

time is passing too slowly here in Hongkong.

i don't know why but i feel scared for semester two.
i feel like all the stress and pressure and moodiness and all the crap will repeat itself all over again and i really really really don't want to go through them.

sigh just a while ago, our "favourite teacher" just interrogated us.

HELLO IVAN CHAN CHUN WAI! DO YOU KNOW HOW TO READ THIS? THIS IS VERY SIMPLE ENGLISH. HAVE YOU TAKEN YOUR HKCEE ENGLISH EXAM YET?
i hope you'll pass the exam :)

okay i'm gonna watch spirited away now....
elibird!!!! is it loading??????

2009-10-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

I don't feel like sleeping even though i have a long day tmr
i think i'll end up being sleepy during technique class, omg cannot!!

i'm glad i did homework today (:

went to lamma island with elizabeth and her godparents, it was nice.
the environment is quite peaceful and the walk through the hills are quite cooling and relaxing,
i feel like i'm on a holiday, only to be reminded that i have to go to school early tmr.

i ate too much food and am feeling really uncomfortable now.
i almost vomitted especially after the ferry ride back to hongkong island.

my mum is coming on thursday!! i'm quite excited, even though i dunno where we will go.
my third brother will be going to National Service on wednesday ):
i'll really miss him. hahahha but we're already in different country lah so actually not much dif.
the house in Singapore will be left with so little people, just my parents, second bro and my maid.
from 7 people become 4 people.

i can't wait to go back for christmas.
aiyah sian i keep saying that.

i really need to lose some weight lah.
i think cy laoshi will be shock the next time she weigh us cos i've been eating too much these few days.

i hope the next week will go smoothly...

2009-09-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

FINALLY got internet in my house.
thats good (:

I feel like i've been here for agess, but in actual fact, its only two weeks.
i hope october comes faster, hope my mum comes faster.
I wanna go back to Singapore some time this year, but i can't because i don't have much holidays.
I don't want the next time for me to go back to be chinese new year, cos its next feb omg.

recently, classes has been bad for me.
Every single lesson, caiying laoshi will call my name and scream at me for doing something wrong.
argh i wish i'm more flexible and stable.
i feel like i'm getting tighter and tighter lah.
and omg caiying laoshi is going to bring her weighing machine to weigh us every friday. thanks man -.-

i can't do anything properly in all my classes lahh...

i don't understand how the people around me manage to be so good, i wish i can be like all my teachers. and living in the same house with a ballet pro makes me feel so demoralised.

ah crap even i cannot stand myself complaining.

i'm just going to do something else.

sianned.

2009-09-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

still haven't gotten any internet, its been two weeks..and it's kind of boring because i don't have a television at home too.

but yaye i'm gonna get internet connection from joni tmr cos she has an extra one.
and the ever so kind alisa will be donating her television here next tuesday! i'm really so thankful for the both of them(:

its been a little more than a week of school and i'm quite sure i'm starting to feel tired from the classes and OH MY GOODNESS TO ALL THE PRESSURE. i'm such a dance retard really and even if all the teachers are starting out with all the simple and basic stuffs, i feel as if i can't do any of then properly. Its always never enough and this and that.

Folk dance is kind of difficult for me, i always knew i was never a ming jian wu person. I wanna dance like all my teachers, but i can never do that.
i can't believe i'm feeling stressed about most of my class when it is barely the second week of school.

Having chinese technique everyday really kills my body, and i can totally feel my body getting more achey and tight as each day pass. It's like i have to use extra strength and energy in class everyday in order to do the class. But i glad that the class pushes me, not that i enjoy being competitive in class, but i'm thankful that i have a teacher like caiying laoshi to scream at us everyday.

shen yun has been fun, although i was quite unhappy at a certain point of time, but i enjoyed most of the classes.

I wish contemp classes could be faster, but i'm quite sure it will soon...i think..

Life in APA now is really quite different from last year.
somehow, i kind of miss common year, i miss being in THE common year class.
Right now everyone has been split into their own majors and groups, i feel like we're all starting to be strangers all over again.
i know its inevitable that we'll all drift apart, but seriously, a part of me just don't want to.

sometimes the life here really makes me wonder if i can really stay here for another 4 more years....

it'll be perfect if my life in Hongkong and Singapore could happen all at the same time.
I miss Singapore, my family, my friends...

2009-09-02T21:19:00.002+08:00

First day of school with technique classes coming in.

went to school today quite nervous about taking classes as a second year.
its a familiar feeling walking to school yet i was still quite scared and lost when i was walking to my first class.

the first class was technique skills, and i was like running around the school with elizabeth because we were quite confused as to where the class is, and i can't find any of my class's girls.
haha we ended up meeting in to the dean of and dance and she was like asking if we were lost.

in the end we combined with the male's class, but its for a month only lah
well, class was....similar to last year's chinese technique because its Billy Sir.
but i'm sure today was just a "warm-up" class haha. good good, prepare me first.
cos i was already shaking, wa lao i'm so weak after the holidays lah

then chinese technique class with the degree 1 students.
oh man, the class is TOO big ):
i was kind of looking forward to have classes with little ppl, but in the end we still combined with the year threes

had lunch and then chinese folk afterwards. and i can't do wei wuer for nuts, i've never really done it before and i think i'm so retarded lah sian diao. nevermind, just practise lo

oh and one good thing today is that elizabeth can finally start taking class from tmr onwards, yayes!

i'm at my aunt's place now and their house is so comfy and nice lor, i wanna stay here for like..forever!

i hope my mother comes here soonnnn

i think i'm gonna ache tmr, especially my yao lor
and the first lesson tmr is chinese technique with caiying laoshi, wah i'm gonna die, and i'm freaking scared actually

hais i should just go to sleep. and i don't have to wake up early tmr (:

2009-08-31T20:02:00.004+08:00

its been another day of hongkong.
can't really say i've settled in already, cos i still keep thinking of Singapore.
but oh well, at least there are proper things for me to do today.

went back to school for some orientation things, saw a lot of people who actually bothered to come back for this talk thing. Managed to catch up a little bit with the classmates, and i guess everyone has changed their image in one way or another (other than me ofcourse) and its good to feel the atmosphere of school again..

sometimes i really hate to be alone at home at night. it really makes me think of so many things, and the past two night were really terrible for me. but i'm much better now, i just have to keep reminding myself that school starts tmr and dance classes starts on wednesday, at least it'll keep me busy for a little while.

i feel so sorry for elizabeth. I don't dare to imagine how it feels to not be able to start school where you are all here and ready, and two weeks isn't a short period of time

even i feel stiff and uncomfortable not dancing for 6 days since i've been back here in hongkong.

Its weird.
I'm not excited for school, i'm not looking forward to living here in Hongkong.
Call me a spoilt brat but i want to be back with my family.

haha, i know i can't
and i know i will still stay here to finish my studies.
i've never doubt my decision to come to hkapa to dance, but i think i've underestimated how i would be able to cope with the environment and life here alone.

and i really thought that i've learnt to be able to live by myself after one year, and to say the truth, i've been starting to enjoy living alone towards the end of last year, but somehow this summer trip back to Singapore made me so attached to everything there again.

It hard to keep switching like that you know, to have to constantly change the lives you have in Hongkong and Singapore.

Right now, i just want to keep myself busy, to go for a zillion dance classes, to have the motivation and self-disipline to improve my dancing, and to not get fat.

to a really special someone,
Sometime things aren't what you've expected and it can be really hard to get used to, but i believe with time, things will slowly fall into place. School, house, friends, life. This period of time may be be difficult, but you'll definately get through it.
Coming to hongkong with nothing can be quite saddening, but its really up to you to make yourself be happier living here, to make friends, to take initiatives.
It may feel a little scary, it may feel weird, but i think it's important to take that first step, because seriously, its your life that you're living.
I know it sucks to have to do everything by yourself, I wish i could be there whenever you need help, and i'll feel sad when things are beyond my control, but i hope that you know, i just a phonecall away.

2009-08-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

i miss home a lot.

and i really really wished that my mother could be beside me right now.
Its really hard for me, i don't know why..

i just want to go back to Singapore right now.
and its so shitty cos now everyone will think that i'm such a 3 min person.
i don't really know what exactly is going through my mind now

but all that i know is, my life now sucks.
i hate it. and i don't know what to do with it now.

so what if i have friends here in hongkong, i realise that at times when i really need someone beside me, the only person who will always be there to listen to me, is my mother.
even if she doesn't know all my problems, i just feel contented as long as she is beside me.
and i know i haven't really been spending time back home for the past 2 months, but i really really enjoy being in the house, knowing that my family is here with me.

my throat is feeling sour, my heart is sore. I can't help it.
and i don't know how to save myself anymore.

sometimes, i feel like i can't talk to any of my friends, maybe its just me being oversensative, but i feel like i'm like a back up plan, and the friendship is just there because it was there all along.
ahh, i should have guessed, we'll all make other friends as time passes by.

i'm starting to lose control of myself, starting to be an irritating spoilt brat. i'm sorry if i was attention seeking, i'm sorry if i kept repeating my lines, it just sucks to be alone you know.

and i feel like crap now.

but who cares lah right.

everything is not what it's supposed to be and i'm just so tired of all these.
i'm not brave, i'm not strong and two nights of crying ain't gonna solve all these problems.

but i really can't help it, when i think of everything.

i just wanna hug my mother right now

2009-01-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

went to school today for rehearsal
had quite a nice time
i kinda can't remember all the steps so fast, but its okay cos its fun!
and i'm sure i'll be fine with a little bit more practise and partnering
its fun playing with the chairs and all the exagerated musical thingy..

later on some of them went to join the GYDP contemp class, but some of us felt quite odd cos we weren't exactly allowed to join.
so some of us just sat outside the dance room and talk. for a really long time.
and i felt nice cos we've been able to share so many things with each other.
then after the contemp class, everyone of us decided to join the African dance class.
it was fun! and weird for me, but who cares, its just something different.
and i think i look stupid sometimes, which really makes me laugh lah
haha but there is always a first time (:

then we just slack at the usual place at the bridge.
and we had quite a lot of heart to heart talk, it was nice
i think i must really work harder here, cannot slack too much! (:

met Zixin later on with jensen at Zixin's hotel
talked about staying together and everything, but i don't know also lah..very complicated
anyway nice to meet her, so there is another malaysian in HKAPA liao
welcome to the family!!

i wonder when will another Singaporean come to HKAPA
i'm like the only Singaporean here
lets hope another one comes next year (which technically is this year) :D

i still haven't got the white shirt for the choreographic showing on monday.
but where to get leh?

Dimsum tmr before watching the guy's performance!

2009-01-16T23:29:00.003+08:00

its keith's last lesson with us.
we did like everything.
it was quite fun actually, i hope we'll have a good showing next week for the combis!

sang a surprise birthday song for camile during chorus
and she was like.....as high as ever.
she is really 24 hours energetic lah, it reallyy crazyyy
but it quite fun cos she is always so high and its quite funny sometimes too.
her last lesson with us this winter term too. awwww...she is really great!
the good thing is...she is going to be our chorus teacher next semester!!!!!!! YAYE

and i'm confirm taking acrobatics and chorus for electives next semester.
jazz and tap not sure yet..still thinking...
maybe i'll take jazz...don't think i'll take tap bah.
returned the tap shoes to my senior liao.
haha i feel so bad that i borrowed her tap shoes for half a year, and i'm so grateful that she doesn't mind!

oh wendy's rep audition today.
hahaha. i got nothing to say.

back to ballet next week...
and i have duo duo's choreography showing next monday! i'm so scared for that lah
i hope i'll not make any mistakes man...i better not.

rehearsal in sch tmr for " we go together "
hahahha our pro jensen choreographer!

2009-01-15T21:00:00.002+08:00

tmr is the last day of musical theatre dance.
i'm gonna make sure i enjoy it, no matter how tired or slacky i feel in the morning.
and i hope that we'll do the "dance at the gym" well
must go all out all the way!!! yea!

rep audition tmr.
i don't even know what we are expected to do..

today during chorus,
we sang really nice songs!
and we kept repeating them until my voice wanna die.
but it was fun.

when the teacher came into the class in the morning, he was holding an orange on his hand and we were like staring cos he kept holding on to the orange throughout the lesson.
he also dun wanna tell us what he want to do..
then when we were allowed to sleep, he off the lights and we were like all lying on the floor..
then a few minutes later, we all smelt orange, like the whole dance room was filled with the orange scent lah. and everyone just burst out laughing lor! cos the teacher was like eating the orange! omg lah..so weird, and we kept asking him to give us one piece but he refused to.
and when we woke up(actually we didn't sleep cos it was just bout 5 mins and we were busy laughing at the orange) there were lots of chocolates on the piano, and everyone just ran and snatch the chocolates hahahha, so funny lah. but yaye thanks to him for the yummy chocolates (:

during acting today, we finished the "luck be a lady" song.
yaye left the grease's " we stay together" thing
and i hope we'll have time to finish it next week.

and i'm happy today cos i got to eat my bringal! and yesterday got ku lu yok
been waiting for so long and the canteen finally cooked it hahaha.
shyt i'm eating too much lah.

and i'm so envious of Singapore's 24-30 degrees weather lah

bout one more week to go back.

next week ballet will replace musical theatre dance.
i'm gonna die in that 2 hours lah.
ahhhhh. why can't they put like chinese dance instead of ballet??

i can't wait for summer holidays.
which is like 5 months later.

2009-01-12T23:14:00.004+08:00

the start of the second week of winter term.

time is passing too slowly right now.

haha and yesterday we were supposed to go ice skating together,
but we ended up watching a movie cos we were tempted by the cinema that is just right beside the skating ring.
but its okay, i'm sure we'll have other chances to ice skate together.

i must be crazy, i'm freezing to death here and yet i wanna go ice skating haha.

i think i like cold weather for a few days, like for a holiday.
but i hate it if i have to live my life here like this, for months in this freezing winter period.
argh i miss Singapore's weather.
i miss the Sun
miss wearing shorts and t-shirt out.

hate to be wrapped with so many layers of clothings or huge jackets.

and today during jazz i hurt my toe again, it was so painful and now its abit bruised.
i hope it'll get well soon cos i can't walk properly without feeling painful.

oh i just remembered that today during acting,
we played some gambling thing hahha, it was fun!
cos we are doing a scene from "Guys and Dolls" for acting class and its a musical about gambling and stuff like that.
so we got to play those olden days gambling stuffs that you play at the gambling den. ahha super vintage but it was fun!
with all the papaer money and all.
just to get the feel of how we should act in the scene.
but everyone was like screaming and trying to win as much money as possible.
well i gained profit! but 50 bucks only..
a lot of other people made more money, but there are also a lot of people who were left with zero dollars hahaha.
fun game.

slacked in school afterwards..as usual.
its kinda funny how we have so much time left after school cos we are ending too early, only 4.45pm leh

oh and there are repertory auditions on friday.
i'm so dead, i know i have to face a million auditions like these for my whole life
but i don't exactly quite love them...

2009-01-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

i don't know why
but ever since i've been back home for christmas
i feel like i want to stay in Singapore forever

i really miss home so much.

and its so weird.

i remember the few days before i went back to Singapore, which is the last few days of semester one in APA,
i was kind of reluctant to go back because i was so happy being in APA, being with my classmates and just feeling the warmth of my friends in Hongkong. The last few days were the funnest days i've had with my class and teachers.
and i thought, i'll always be happy, both in Singapore and Hongkong.

but then i went back to Singapore,
and this time when i come back to Hongkong, my heart still seems to stay in Singapore.

and i don't know why i'm feeling this way.

yea i know i still love my class and i'm still having a lot of fun with everyone,
in class, after class, and outside of school.
i think i'm really lucky to be able to meet friends like them.

but i don't know.
i think of Singapore everyday, i think of my home, i think of my family, my friends.
and sometimes being alone here isn't really that easy for me.

argh its just another one of those emo days,
and no i don't want to live my life like that.

i don't know why its so difficult for me this time,
and i'm just counting down to the day that i'll be back for chinese new year.

which totally sucks cos i told myself that i won't want to be someone who keeps thinking of going back when i was the one in the first place who made the decision to come to hongkong, to come to HKAPA.

i really wish ebird was with me in APA, it'll really make me feel better.
not anything within my control, but i'll pray for her.
and i really hope that its meant to be.

hah but don't worry,
i don't regret coming to APA at all.

it just one of those days that i really miss home.

2009-01-08T19:34:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i actually stop blogging..when i used to blog every single day back then.

well its winter term now
and there are no technique classes in APA for us
we are doing musical this term!
so there is musical theatre dance in the morning (which kinda kills)
then chorus after that
and acting to end the day.

and our class is working on doing something from the "westside story"
haha i'm kind of looking forward to doing something like this..especially with my class

my left thigh is aching like crazy cos of the duet thing that we learn today but ahh i'll get over it soon.

the weather is getting cold here, haha i'm glad i'm going back to Singapore for chinese new year, which is supposedly the coldest period here.
i miss Singapore, and although i've been back for christmas, it doesn't feel like i've been back.
i miss my bed so much and my home.
hahha partly because half of my holidays were spent in Malaysia and i only had one week in Singapore, but better than nothing i guess.

and i ate my you4 mian4 gan1 at the xinmin coffee shop! yaye.

okay but actually i miss home cooked food the most.

the next time i go back, i wanna spend more time at home and not go out so much, cos i really miss being at home.
haha easier said than done.

soooo..........
for musical theatre dance we are basically doing jazz
and on the first day, i was like dying from the sit-ups..i'm so weak lah omg.
haha but the combinations and everything that we've learnt are quite fun.
and working together with everyone to produce something is something that i really like to do, who knows after winter term i'll miss doing this with my class, so i should really cherish everything now.

and for chorus, we are basically learning songs..haha its a first time for me in a chorus class so everything is kinda new for me, but the singing is enjoyable so i'm fine (:

acting is fun with lots of games, more like a playing class to me haha.
but there's lots to learn from those games too.
oh and my teacher went to Singapore to study for two years to study at the United World College, so its so cool that she knows Singapore.

have been ending early everyday, around 4.45pm
the earliest since i'm come to APA, cos usually there are electives until 7pm and i'll be so tired by then.
but the schedule now is fine, i don't feel tired or whatever, maybe just a little bit or aches here and there.

and i'm still so uncertain about what electives i wanna take next semester.

i hope Elizabeth comes and audition soon.

2008-12-14T22:28:00.002+08:00

been so busy lately
leaving school around 11+pm everyday because of rehearsals
and i'm really sleepy most of the time.

had the "no drugs" dance competition yesterday
pics are up on facebook

i feel really happy.

although there were lots of mistakes in the dance, partly cos the music was played like 10 secs into the song and we were confused what to do.
then there were some parts where ppl forget movements.
but i really enjoyed myself.

We got third place, out of eleven teams in the open catergory
and i'm satisfied

i love all of us, and i would never wanna forget this event.
i think i've really learnt a lot through this whole process of rehearsal and competiting.
seriously none of us thought we would have won something because the initial intention was to go and have some fun in this dance comp. and as dip ones, we really don't have much experience in choreographing and doing all these kind of things by ourselves.

now i look back at how we got together and do all these, i think........i feel really warm.
and i really wanna experience this whole thing again.

yea there were disagreements at some time, but i'm glad it didn't affect our friendships, in fact, i feel as if we've all learnt to be more open to each other's ideas and opinions.

hahaha.
never expected that i'll feel so attach to this dance comp, to this group of people, and to all those who've helped us.

i really thank all of us for the efforts, the time sacrified and the determination to keep on going even though we were exhausted from all the technique classes during the day.

seriously, sometimes even though my body is so tired from all the classes during the day, whenever it comes to rehearsing this dance after school, there is always a sudden surge of energy that runs through me and keeps me going on.
as vivian said, no matter how tired we've felt at one point of another, none of us have ever thought of backing out of this.

and i'm really grateful.

to think how we've changed major parts of the dance during the last few days before the competition and staying back to get them right, i'm glad we've survived through it and came out strong.

and now that its all over,
yea i feel a sense of loss, and somehow i really wish we'll be able to get together again and do something like this.
hah, maybe a year later, who knows.

had steamboat celebration after that.
and it was great, with all the laughter and the talks.
i really love how we were all so commited and it really wasn't easy for everyone of us.
i was just overwhelmed with the love and bond that i've felt between us that i teared.
but i'll never wanna forget this feeling.

first dance competition in hongkong,
first performance with the friends in my class.

first time that i've felt real happiness and warmth since i've came to hongkong.

i'm just really thankful for this whole experience
and i wanna keep the memories with me forever (:

2008-12-06T22:36:00.003+08:00

busy busy week, haha.

had fundamentals movement exam yesterday
and i don't know why, even though we were prepared, i still felt really nervous.
my heart was beating quite fast just before my group's turn.
but i guess it well quite well overall, other than some minor hiccups here and there.
yaye fundamentals exam is overr!

and cantonese exam is over too!
there's no canto next week as well, yaye.

but there is the anti-drug dance competition next saturday
and we are like not anywheree...
i really hope we'll practise more and that everyone will try to turn up during every rehearsal..
because until now, we haven't had any full attendance in all our rehearsals..
oh well, gotta spend more time after school to rehearse the dance next week! and get the costumes..decide on hair and other stuffs.
i really really hope we don't make a fool out of ourselves during the competition.

two more weeks to end of Sem 1
two more weeks to Singapore.
i can't wait for the holidays, can't wait for christmas.

but all my other exams are in one week.

I'm so dead for my ballet.

actually i think i'm dead for all the other exams as well.
ahh. must work harder!
i'm like nervous.......now.

so, hotpot at Alisa's house yesterday with lu, manuel, joni and jensen.
had a great time laming around and eating
and i enjoyed myself, wonder when is the second of the hotpot haha, cos there were so much food left.

anddd i miss Singapore.

2008-11-30T19:26:00.002+08:00

and after 2 months of absence from here.
i just had the sudden urge to post today.
although i don't know what i want to post about, but..who cares actually..

in about 3 weeks my first semester here in HKAPA is going to end.
and i'll be back in Singapore soon, hehe to celebrate christmas.
i'm looking forward to going back, not that i don't like it here, its just that the end of the semester means....EXAMS
i'm actually really scared, and really unsure if i'll be able to it, but yea, i'll definately try my best.

my mum is here in hongkong to stay with me for one week, since she managed to get a supposedly cheap air ticket.
but i'm really busy these few days, or weeks rather, i don't even have one free day.

and the few of us in our class decided to join this anti-drug dance competition thing, its a really small event lah, but still its a competition. and we haven't even done much to the dance when the competition is only 2 weeks away!
haha so we have to go back to sch to rehearse on sat and sun lo..i hope we'll manage everything on time.

had my first paper last friday, it was fundamentals written exam, and i crapped through most of it haha. i did study okay...i'm just not sure if the answer i gave is the answer they want.
then after that had the long delayed music test for my group, we are suppose to dance in cannons lah, and thank goodness we manage to scrape through everything because our whole item was SO RUSHED. like we really squeeze our little free time to do it the day before and the day itself, i'm so thankful for our team efforts, cos in the end, it was not bad actually (:
i'm just glad its OVER.

but argh many exams coming up soon. and fundamentals journal is due. fundamentals movement exam next friday. cantonese exam next thurday
i'm so so dead.
arghh buck up ruimin

oh and i just remembered, there is the PA production review that i have to do.
i better be smart enough to be able to have something to write about the jazz concert, if not i can bang my head on the wall already.

the weekends are gone in a flash
and i have school early in the morning tmr!
no more waking up late ):

BUT CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! YAYE

2008-10-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

reached school at 12.30 today
met up with the others after they had their english class
we went to have lunch outside of school cos we still have quite some time before our next class.

ate some satay thingy haha quite nice actually, but its different from the kind of satay we had in Singapore.
went back and slacked awhile at the bridge, and finished up my canto homework hehe
had improv class afterwards, it was fun, the teacher used more english this lesson, haha. and i think its so interesting that we do different things every lesson, and you can do whatever actions you want, sometimes the music helps you get into the mood of what you are suppose to do during that lesson, so its good (:
then chinese folk, just revised and do the same stuffs haha.
i think the studio that we have chinese folk in is like permanently sunny, the sun is always shinning in when we have classes.

tap after that, still the same,
and i'm not sure if i'm still enjoying it hah, just going for lessons, trying to get my stupid feet to listen to me, sometimes i really can't control them.
had a short canto class after that, and i went to slack at the bridge with the others again
then went home.

chinese tech tmr is canceled
cos there is this presentation by somebody in studio one.
i feel like i haven't done chinese dance in a loonnnnggggg time.
these 3 weeks we only have 1 chinese tech per week, cos its either canceled or its a public holiday,
which actually feels quite non-existent, like not enough training so you don't improve.
hais, i miss huaykuan and honglei.

oh well, watching 雪山飞狐 by Hongkong Dance Company tmr (:

2008-10-08T21:22:00.004+08:00

took the bus with andy today
and we reached APA super early haha
slacked around before going for class

classes were all okay lah, learning and doing more stuffs as the days pass
and i like having lesson in studio 6 cos its big hehe
oh and for ballet today, our pianist is back to our original one, no more singaporean lo haha
but i like all the pianist, play the piano until so nice, even if you are tired you will still have the mood to dance to the music (:
improv today we did some pose thing, its quite fun actually. i like what we do in improv classes, but i think i will enjoy it more if i'm able to understand what the teacher says, cos she uses too much cantonese that i don't understand, ahha too complicated for me liao, my understanding of cantonese is just some simple phrases. but oh well, i think it'll get better.

ended early today cos i have no pu tong hua class
slacked around with jensen, accompany him to the physio to check his hand, so poor thing , i see already also can feel the pain of the swollen thing on his wrist, hope he gets better bah, then can dance properly, if not his hand everytime do classes also very painful, especially acro class

whee i can wake up later tmr as well
but ending at 8.30 tmr cos of tap and cantonese class! haha
hope i'll have enough energy.
oh and there is chinese folk tmr, ahh hope i can do the flip the fan thing properly, still not very comfortable with it.
ahh random.

lightsticks on sand.

taken from that day at the beach during 中秋节 (:

2008-10-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

public holiday today
so shuang can wake up late

then actually had no plans for the day
but in the end lu asked jensen and i to join them for steamboat
lu was treating his dancers to steamboat, then shun bian ask us come to eat hehe
so nice.
so had lunch with them,
wah the steamboat got so many food lo, hahah yummy
and lu was so nice, prepared so many things, still got desert and all ahhaha so 细心 (:

and cos it was held in the boy's hostel
wah so cool lah their hostel, nice until cannot.
so high class and beautiful..
hais, why only foreigner APA boys got hostel..girls don't have ):
siann
it would be great if i can live in such a place lor
now so mafan, all the girls foreigner have to find their own place to stay and everything on their own..

school tmr again, wake up early
and there are 3 technique classes
but i end early hahha! wednesday is the only day i finish early, cos i got not pu tong hua lesson
the rest of the days i end at 7pm haha so late

watching a concert by hongkong dance company on friday at APA
and my mum is coming over on friday too, for holiday lo haha

2008-10-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

long day at school..
its past midnight already!

had classes today..
first was ballet hahha
and our pianist was change to our ballet teacher's husband hahha
so cute lor, the wife is our ballet teacher and the husband is our pianist
and he is from Singapore somemore (:
then contemp was nice too, just that i was getting very hungry hahha
we are doing more stuffs already, nevermind take things one step at a time lah..
i think i'm like my classes more and more already hehe (:

had music after that, just listening to more music lor..and doing some theory.
after lunch had body conditioning (yoga), relaxing lah, relax until feel like sleeping haha
so funny, everytime monday after yoga is chinese folk and everyone will feel like sleeping after yoga, so usually the mood before chinese folk is the feel-like-sleeping mood. haha poor caiying laoshi...

jazz in the evening was quite fun actually! and i finally got the coordination thing correct lor, yaye! continued on the combination that we learnt last week, super old school!
right after jazz, went for rehearsal for duo duo's piece, heard the music and its nice!! hehes
but in the middle abit rap-ish, hahah so got like a bit of western de feel.

managed to watch the senior's show at night in studio one, it was nice, but i couldn't understand a bit cos there were parts that involved acting and my cantonese is like cannot make it de..
so while everyone was laughing at the lame jokes, i was like...confused haha.
nevermind slowly slowly, my cantonese will get better (:

the weather here in hongkong is getting much cooler, like all of a sudden.
which means winter is coming! i'm so gonna freeze.
miss singapore's all year round summer weather hahaha

tmr is a public holiday,
the last one already, after tmr there will be no more holiday until my semester ends
hahah, last chance to sleep till late late! (:

2008-10-05T19:57:00.003+08:00

okay i've been contemplating if i wanna continue blogging here haha
but i guess i'm back.
LONGGG time since my last posts..

so it seems like the JC promos are over, and everyone is concentrating on PW
and i still have my exams in like...two months haha.

had this wednesday off cos of national day in china.
went out with some international students and we went back to APA to watch the fireworks!
well the view was really good, didn't know APA had such a balcony to view the fireworks
it was like 25 mins! longgg, the front and back were nice, but maybe the middle was quite boring.
i suppose the whole fireworks must have cost a bomb lah...25 mins leh!

and on thursday i only had to reach school at 2.45pm
which is like super late lor
cos i don't need to attend the intro to PA(cantonese version) and i don't take English language lessons.
so i'm like free the whole morning.
woke up quite late and took my own sweet time to go to school.

but
i have to go to school on saturday!
for the intro to PA(english version) which consists of 6 people.
then after that went to walk around causeway bay with vivian and jensen
ate loads of yummy food, hah i'm getting fat liao lah.
after that, jensen went home and we went back to APA in the evening cos vivian had rehearsal for some GYDP item thing.
initially i was just waiting for vivian to finish her rehearsal cos we actually planned to stayover in her house at night.
so i just sat outside the danceroom.
then Mandy came, and we were all talking and talking, then something happened and now i'm going to perform with them for the item too! hahha yay, so happy (:
actually thanks to Vivian, Mandy and Caiying laoshi
the item is a fan dance, haha quite excited to perform (:

after that vivan and i met up with water and we went to vivian's house
haha bought stuffs from the supermarket nearby and water cooked dinner for us!
i love vivian's house cos its so nice, warm and cosy (:
and the three of us were the only ones at home cos Vivian's family members all went overseas.
slacked in her house, watched tv, ate and talked a lot haha.
quite fun actually (:

today when we were going back home, it started to rain heavily..
and the wind was very strong too cos there is typhoon signal 1
so the rain was like flying everywhere.
i was getting all drenched even though i had my umbrella and my umbrella almost couldn't survive because the wind was so strong ahha, anyway made it back home lah.

school tmr! and till very late too
cos there is rehearsal after jazz, and maybe we are going to watch the senior's performance in studio 1 at 8pm
and its so weird because we are going to have school tmr, and then tuesday is a public holiday again, hah!

oh and i sent in my application a few days ago to see if i'm allowed to go back to Singapore in november to perform for the NAFA concert, haha wonder if it'll be approved cos i'll be missing lessons! hope i won't miss out on too much fun classes cos it will be production week at that time and i heard there will be more dance classes scheduled for us!

anyway, have to wake up early tmr again.
hope classes will be good (:

2008-09-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

i slept at 8+pm last night hahaha!
today woke up and received a sms from water saying that there is not sch today
wah happy lor can go back to sleep.
then after that slept a while more, ming called and say that we need to be back in the academy for the 2nd period onwards..
then had to wake up and went to sch lo hahah

in the end missed chinese tech cos it was the first class.
then had ballet today
the typhoon yesterday caused the APA air conditioning to spoil
so the whole academy was out of air-con, so it was super hot! btw, they don't have fans
and all the dance rooms have no windows that could be opened.
it was very stuffy haha
but it was nice cos we get to sweat, but sian today never really sweat a lot leh..only abit,cos only got 2 class and they are so far apart. and they felt really fast too.

classes were still going on as normal.
did a little more stuffs in ballet today.
and today we did this combination on the barre to one of the music from les choristes,
i was so reminded of Singapore lah, reminds me to ebird too. haha, those days when i watched the movie "les choristes", then ebird and i fell in love with the songs inside.

oh and yesterday in the locker room,
i was sitting under an opened locker and i didn't know..
then i stood up and my back banged the edge of the locker, super painful!
then now there is a cut on my back, hahah. wear leotards can see lo, unglam!
but at least its 皮外伤 only, hope i don't get any 内伤 lah

i felt today's contemp was more productive,
hope it'll get better! hahha.
end really early today cos i got no 普通话 class.
went to slack around while waiting for the rest to finish their class.

then after that , vivian, karen, ivan, andy and me went to the canteen to have afternoon tea.
wah the food is nice lo, ate some toast thingy,
but its super fattening! so long long eat one time lor
hahah, must exercise more liao, but tmr also dun really have any dance class, all academics de.
only got chinese folk and tap. hmm maybe tap will be tiring hahah

can't wake up late tmr cos i've to be in sch for the demonstration thing..
hahahha.
and i'm ending real late tmr!
hope i'll not be too tired (:

2008-09-23T18:42:00.003+08:00

earliest day i've been back from school since the school started.
there was a typhoon signal 8 today
and we were halfway having acrobatics class while people came informing us that we had to leave straight away and go home.
aww i wanted to finish class first!! but oh well..

first time experiencing a typhoon,
its quite fun actually, its very very very windy
and if its raining, the rain hits you hard..
sort of ran to the mtr to take the train cos it was raining quite heavily and if i took out my umbrella i'm pretty sure the umbrella will overflip.

i'm still really really sleepy and i hope that i'll be sleeping early tonight.

today was rather slacky,
i think the only proper lesson i had today was ballet
fundamentals was okay lah, just recapped stuffs that were taught last week.
contemporary tech was canceled, don't know why also..
so had a long break and we did some rehearsing for the music for dance CA assesment thing

i really admire my ballet and contemp teachers.
every single time i look at Tasha(ballet teacher) she always looks so nice when she dance, she has got such a wonderful body, wonderful grace, its always a pleasure to watch her dance really.
and Cho yi (contemp teacher) has such a strong character, she always knows what she wants and is very clear of what she is doing, both to her life and in dancing.
i like having ballet and contemp classes haha.
never really learnt them before coming to APA, but i think my interest for them only increased since having the classes in APA

the days feel like its passing so fast
but in actual fact its not, i've only been here for 3 weeks.
and i still have so many more weeks to go haha.

going to watch the CCDC performance this saturday and the HKDC performance next month.

and i can't wake up late this thursday cos i have to go for the demonstration for intro to performing arts.

okay i'm really sleepy even though its still early
shall sleep ealier tonight and hopefully i'll have more energy tmr (:

2008-09-22T22:57:00.002+08:00

i've not been posting much..
cos i'm just really sleepy everyday when i get home,
and i'll have to wake up early the next morning again

classes are fine so far,
first continual assesment is coming up this friday for intro to music for dance
hope we'll do well lah haha.
its been 3 weeks into dip one and i'm still feeling quite okay.

too many things to say about my classes, but don't know where to start, so nevermind.
anyway i've been going online almost everyday, hahaha!
so talk to me online! hahaha

shall blog when i don't feel so sleepy,
which is i don't know when.

anyway,
i still love dancing to the pianist (:

2008-09-18T23:59:00.008+08:00

i'm feeling sleepy..

today morning was the worst experience i've had since coming to hongkong.

it was so so so bad, but i can't blog about it because i think i'll get into trouble if some people sees it haha.

anyway i just really felt so helpless, and i really wish that none of these will ever happen again..

but anyway today is Vivian's birthday!
VIVIAN 生日快乐！

celebrated her birthday during our free period cum lunch break.

before that i went to buy the birthday cake because i don't have english class so i have 2 hours free lo.

went to walk around..then i was sitting down on the bench, and then a couple came and approach me and they asked me for directions! i was like "ermm...对不起我也不是香港人"

then they were talking to each other and their accent just feels like home, so i asked them where are they from and they said "新加坡”

at that moment i felt quite happy because it just feels warm to meet people from home like this.

and i helped them to find the place they are going, so yay (:

then i bought the cake and went back to wait for them..

ate lunch first and we went to surprise vivian.

so i brought vivian to the toilet first and we dilly dallied for really long cos the rest have to prepare the stuffs on the 4th floor.

then when we went up to the 4th floor, the rest brought out the cake and everything..

haha and we made so much noise until the teacher in the dance room came out and tell us to keep quiet cos he was having a class.

gave Vivian her birthday present from us and hahahha

we wanted her to wear it for our dance classes later on...but aiyoh in the end never.

haha sexy arh....and it comes with another sexy panties too (:

haha group shot! lovely people from my class (:

everyone digging in to the cake, and the cake was yummy haha

pics pics.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN! haha you are the same age as me already!

hope you felt happy today (:

2008-09-15T21:40:00.004+08:00

today is a public holiday here in Hongkong because of 中秋节
so no lesson at APA haha.

on saturday, Went to redbox(which is our kbox) with vivian, water, jensen and kieren.
haha my first time, and its was quite fun, we sang loads of song and i was like totally lost at all the cantonese songs!
but water and kieren super power lor, they practically know every single song and they are so engrossed in their singing haha.
and i'm like a sua ku there lor, i should got sing K more often lah

pictures another day!

then jensen and i went for the APA foreigner gathering at causeway bay,
had yummy yummy korean food!
people who went were Alisa, Sayako, Annie, Joni, Lu, Manuel, Natasha, Jensen and me
hahah. it was a really nice dinner, and i would love more of such gatherings, cos we all can relate to one another and its like you know you're not alone (:

then i had to leave ealy to attend Alina's musical at Sai Wan Ho Civics Centre (which is like 2 mins away from my house)
Alina was really good the in muscial! she should totally be and actress lor!
hahahha

On sunday,
It was 中秋节
did my homework in the morning! (finally haha)
then after that went to celebrate with class mates!

haha met near our school and we took a looooooong bus ride to New Territories. it was about a 1hr++ ride lo..
then after that we met up with some others and went to the supermarket to buy stuffs for our picnic at 黄金海岸！
bought lots of food and drinks and loads of rubbish snacks hahah!

then we took a bus to 黄金海岸, there were a lot of people there celebrating as well.
all with their picnic mats, food and drinks, mooncakes, lanterns and too many lightsticks!
then we found a spot and placed all our stuffs and started eating cos we were all too hungry la!
then we played lots of games! super lame one lor...hahhaha!
and the forfeits were like really stupid.
i think we made so much noise lah, but nevermind, cos we weren't the only noisy ones.

Took SUPER lots of photos, but not with my camera lah.
will post up sometime next time when i get them hahaha.
it was fun lah, actually my first time celebrating 中秋节 like this, cos usually you don't really celebrate it in Singapore.

anyway played for quite long there and then we took a mini bus to karen's house (super far) for the stayover.
bathed there and everything. ate mooncakes, chatted
and we decided to play more games
haha it was hilarious lor! super lots of lame games and all the forfeits were super disgusting and lame!!
i kena quite a few times lah, then took alot of photos and videos of ppl doing forfeited. super unglam.
The guys are totally disgusting people lor, they came up with so many stupid ideas! but anyway it was fun.

slept at around 4am, and everyone just lied on the floor and slept....
it was like so improptu, but everyone just slept haha
and we were all squeezing together cos there isn't much space in hongkong houses...
then stupid karen go take photos of us sleeping...unglam lah. haha

woke up a few hours later, watched TV , then we took the train to have our breakfast at a 茶餐厅, really nice food!
and yea i'm sleepy hahaha

long ride back to hongkong island..

pictures up next time when i get them from my classmates.

i have classes tmr...and i'm sleepy..

好想家。
不知为什么，刚放下打回家的电话之后，
眼泪不禁流了下来...
这感觉真不好受

2008-09-13T10:55:00.005+08:00

yesterday, had fundamentals in the morning,

sian i kind of don't like fundamentals liao, it can get quite boring at times..

but actually i'm fine with anything as long as its dance,

oh my goodness i just remember i haven't done my journal for LAST week and this week, crap!

and our class got scolded by MOTA(our fundamentals teacher) for laughing while doing the presentation thing, but it was super funny lah really, every group presentation so lame one lor, can don't laugh meh?

and MOTA said that we must be serious about class, cannot laugh..

next week we are starting to learn anatomy liao. cos for the past two lesson we've just been doing breathing and more breathing...

then had ballet tech

class is going a little bit faster liao

had more barre works and jumps

contemp tech,

haha relaxing! and Cho Yi (my contemp teacher, whose names kinda sound like zls) is from Taiwan, and she was in cloud gate theatre before coming APA, hahah no wonder lah, her combinations all so tai-chi-ish.

haha elizabeth both our contemp teachers were/are from cloud gate theatre and APA! (erm do you get taught by Albert Tiong?)

btw Cho Yi is really pretty

oh and my class people all love Sheng Pei Qi,

she super pretty and nice, i hope one day i get taught under her..

then after lunch had chinese tech,

hmm it was quite okay, just had normal lesson

and i'm supposed to try to stand in the middle next time so that laoshi can see me and remember to speak more chinese so that i can understand.

intro. to music.

quite boring lah ahha,

and we are going to have music exams soon! crap i'm so gonna die lor.

i can't wait for exams that requires dancing, but i'm scared for those academic studies exams, i better not flunk it lah..

jazz was canceled because mandy had to go overseas

so today we ended school earlier

went to the bridge to slack

and i ended up sleeping there hahaha

i was so sleepy lor.

then i woke up and we talked for a while, then left.

jensen (the malaysian guy, i thought his name was jason, until we all found out today that its jensen) water, and i went to have dinner together and we went home.

hahha anyway, pics of my room!

this is my bed

then i have a table, and on the extreme left is my cupboard ahha my cupboard has no door lah, its actually a rack lor.

and thats about my room, super small right!

haha but hongkong houses are like that..

2008-09-11T23:19:00.005+08:00

i've just reached home.

just saw the time and i didn't know that its this late already!

i can wake up late today!

cos i don't need to go for the first lesson as the intro to perf. art class is conducted in cantonese, and i'm going to the english one, so my lesson starts at 11am instead of 9am.

reached the acdemy at 11, went to find yankov(my teacher)

and btw i'm the only student in the class for the english version of intro to perf. art

haha so its like a one to one lesson, cos apparently i'm the only one in Diploma 1 this year that doesn't know cantonese.

but today there was one guy who forgot to turn up for the cantonese lesson, so he joined me for the english one, so today there are 2 students in my class hahaha.

we went to ask if there was any empty room for us to use to have our lesson, but all the rooms were in use, so we had nowhere to go.

then yankov said "starbucks?"

then we said "sure!"

haha so off to starbucks we go for our lessons..

then we went out of the academy and we went into a coffee house to have our lesson, cos its nearer than starbucks.

haha so shuang man, the atmosphere so nice, got the coffee aroma and background music.

then have the lesson, i think intro to perf. arts is interesting, and yankov is a humourous teacher hahah, always tells us interesting things and show us interesting pictures, so its really nice to have the lesson, and the 2 hours didn't feel long at all.

after lesson, went to meet up with the rest of my classmates and we went for lunch outside,

cos our improvisation class is canceled today, so our next lesson starts at 4.15pm

we had loads of time.

went for yum cha!

hahha all the 点心 very nice.

and we talked a lot, then cos me and jason(the malaysian guy) are foreigners and new,

so our classmates treated the both of us to yum cha, so nice lah!

went back and slacked awhile before chinese folk

haha class was nice, didn't learn a lot, but the teacher is so cute lor.

then had tap after that, another wonderful lesson, i really really enjoy tap classes

they are always so fun and its really great exercise, sweat like crazy one.

and when you learn a new step, initially you will have really bad coordination, but after a bit of practise, you'll be able to do it, and that feeling is so shuang haha

rushed down to cantonese class after tap.

haiyo sian i got homework for cantonese, everyone is suppose to give a 3 min speech in cantonese next week, we must talk about how has life been as a foreigner since we came to APA.

siao 3 min leh, my cantonese cannot make it lor....how to talk for 3 min?!?!

but i think my cantonese improved!

i know how to listen to a lot more cantonese liao

and speak a little bit more, but speaking still not that good lah,

i listen better than i can talk.

i hope to learn cantonese faster!!!!! must jiayou! listen more!!

then after canto class, went to our usual hangout (its the brigde ebird!)

and we slacked there for really long, we did so many things.

haha did abit of 拉筋-ing. then we tried loads of acro stuffs.

and it was super fun! did dif kinds of flips and techniques.

then that ivan hor, i didn't know he learnt gymnastics before lor, he can do so many flips lah..

and he do 空翻 like we walking like that, its like nothing to him lor.

then we went to have dinner together at a 茶餐厅 before going home.

hahah anyway didn't post a pic about my locker room yesterday,

this is the machine outside our locker room,

you must press your student ID no. then press "enter"

then you must put your hand at the hand detector thing, when the machine verifies your hand print then you can go into the locker room, so cool right!

and these are the people who ate lunch with me on my first day of school hahah! (:

hmm i'll upload the pics of my farewell at the airport another day, maybe during the weekends, cos i need to go to bed now, have to wake up early tmr liao.

good night (:

2008-09-10T21:43:00.007+08:00

i'm so sleepy.

yesterday started with fundamentals

its was boring lah..already feel like sleeping haha
and crap i haven't done my journal thing that i was supposed to do last week.

ballet and contemp were quite nice, learnt more stuffs and did more proper barre work in ballet.

i know i've said this before but........I LOVE DANCING TO THE PIANIST!!!!

and our contemp pianist is so nice, she not only plays the piano, sometimes she plays the traditional drum as well, and sometimes she even sings! its so nice lah, her voice is so sweet and clear and relaxing...wah you feel so shuang when you dance..

then had acro class

it was quite fun, learnt new stuffs and we did a lot of handstands..
billy sir is strict yet cute at the same time, he teaches in cantonese, and i think his chinese not very good so we both have difficulty communicating.

then he was like asking the class where i'm from, and they said Singapore.
haha then he looked at me and said "哦新加坡，乌节路，nice. " hahaha,

Billy sir is so cute lor.

after that had tap class.

it was TIRING.

sweat until cannot lah, whole leos wet liao, then perspire like crazy

but it was fun!!!

i think i enjoy all my elective classes the best lor...

after tap, i showered in school!

SUPER SHUANG lor

next time should shower in school more often (:

then went to dinner with vivian and water.

we went to eat laksa! hahha even hongkong has laksa

after that they brought me to eat 鸡蛋仔, haha its their 小吃. hmm tasted just like waffle, but the shape is so cute, its like a lot of small small egg like that..

so today i woke up and i was ultra sleepy lor.
had chinese tech and ballet tech in the morning, it was nice, learning a little more stuffs already..still going slow, i hope to learn more stuffs hehes.

my chinese tech pianist plays really nice chinese dance music, i love all the music.

and the ballet tech pianist plays a lot of songs, and all the songs you confirm hear before one, and she play until so beautiful!!!!

had improvisation after that.

improv class is always so relaxing..the only bad thing is i don't understand cantonese so i'm quite lost sometimes, but its always fun and funny during improv.

comtemp class felt really fast, like we didn't do a lot of things.

then after that they had 普通话, but i didn't have to go cos i'm exempted from English and 普通话 cos i know them already.

oh and today the malaysian guy finally came to our class.
haha but he knows cantonese lah...so sian i'm the only one who doesn't speak cantonese..

then i just accompany him while the rest have class cos i'm the only free one.

haha its great to know someone who is also a foreigner and malaysia is so close to singapore, so that makes things better.

went home after that.

and i am so sleepy i want to finish this post up faster.

pictures of my locker room! shall post up other pics next time, cos i'm too tired todya, don't want to post too many pics.

this is the shoe rack outside our locker room, people just put all their shoes there, pointe shoes, soft shoes, character shoes, tap shoes, jazz shoes, folk shoes, every kind of dance shoes....

this is the doorway when you come into the locker room

this are the lockers! people sleep on the blue mat in the morning before class hahaha

the basins, with loads of stuffs by everyone

this is the shower cubicles opposite the locker haha, love to bathe there.

so thats about my locker room.

shall post other pics next time!

need to go to bed, i'm super sleepy!

2008-09-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

first day without my parents.
its indeed a different feeling...
i think i'm really like a baby, an ungrown child.

not that i wanna be emo or what,
but i just really do miss home, miss being in my comfort zone
its so irritating, you know how badly i want to be in hongkong, how badly i want to be accepted into HKAPA
now i'm here, supposedly in the best place i could ever think of, but yet i still yearn to be back at Singapore....

today's classes were fine.
had ballet in the morning, and we finally did more proper barre work.
the ballet majors went to join the dip 2 ballet class.
so unfair, why can't the chinese dance majors join the dip 2 chinese dance class, they should change the timetable or something so that this is possible...but i know they won't haha.
ballet was quite nice, the teacher (oh no, i forgot her name) said that i've got nice plies,yay (:

then contemp, it was just okay, but i know that contemp is going to get tougher cos i heard from my seniors that my contemp teacher is crazy when she really gets going.
and the teacher (argh forgot her name too) said that she will work us till we can't go on anymore, and that contemp will get more interesting as the days goes by, cos thats her style haha.
so right now, we are doing some simpler stuffs, and actually i'm kind of looking forward to being tired after contemp hahs.

then intro to music. boring as usual.....

after lunch, had body conditioning (yoga)
its quite fun, we all had a yoga mat each.
and we did stuffs to relax various muscles...
then towards the end, the lights were off and we were told to close our eyes and lie down..and the whole room was so quiet and dark and the mat was so comfortable that we all slept haha, i think it was for about 10 mins, but it was really refreshing after that.

then it was chinese folk.
haha i kind of like chinese folk because the teacher is quite humourous and haha she teaches in chinese (:

jazz! i think the nicest class of the day
haven't learnt any jazz before coming to APA,
but i really enjoyed the lessons, its more of old school jazz and its really fun to learn and dance.
the music is so jazzy and the movements are so dramatic, haha like musical theatre, so its really nice to dance it. and Mandy is always so hyper, so that makes class much more interesting (:

then the guys wanted to stay back to do some stretching, so i kind of followed them
and we chatted a lot.
i realised that the guys in my class are hardworking, they stay back everyday to 拉筋 because they are not very flexible and they are not so young anymore, so they really train and hope that they will improve and be a good dancer, they have the right attitude haha.
then they were so nice that they brought me out to have dinner together, and i'm really very grateful because they try to help me out and stuffs, and they know that i have nothing to eat haha..
it really nice of them to treat me as their friend and they really made me feel better today.

well, its kind of late already and i have to wake up early tmr by myself, should go to bed now haha.
shall post up some pictures tmr if i don't come back home too late.

2008-09-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

first week of hongkong!

well, things have more or less settled down.
bought all my household appliances, new table, chairs, bedsheets, everything
and i've have my first night in my new home yesterday. my bed is soft and comfy (:

so tmr will be the start of a new week, another week of school, another 5 days of dancing.
i hope it'll be fine, and i sort of hope that the class will progress a little faster, cos right now we are really very slowwwww...but as everyone of our teacher tell our class-must get our basics right and our foundation strong!

today, i woke up late.
then my parents and i went to have a walk around the place i'm living in.
in the afternoon, we went to meet up with friends of relative and all sorts to introduce me to them so that if i have any emergencies, i can look to them for some help.
then we went shopping, for my room, my house and for school.
we went to tai koo to do the shopping, walked around in Jusco, kornhill plaza, cityplaza
when i was in cityplaza, we walked past the ice-skating ring, and i was reminded of 3 months ago when i was here together with elizabeth, uncle Emu and Valai jie jie...those were really good days.
i really wish that elizabeth was beside me, wish that the both of us are in hongkong together now, in HKAPA together...

today is the last day my parents are staying in hongkong with me.
and to say the truth, i really really can't bear to see them leave...
and during dinner today, i realised that its my last dinner with them before they leave tmr morning, and i was so 心酸
tears kept welling up in my eyes and i was trying really hard to control them, i don't want tmy parents to see me cry, i don't want them to worry about me, i want them to know that i will be independant and take good care of myself alone.....but seriously, i'm not even sure myself if i can take care of myself.
i'm so uncertain about myself, and i really hope that i'll be able to survive well, to be happy, and enjoy dancing here.

when they leave, everything is gonna be different already.
have to do everything by myself..have to look for food myself..
i really think i'm gonna starve, i don't even know where to go to eat and such, and oh man i'm gonna have such a hard time.

really pray that God will help me, pray that He will be watching over me, guiding me through this difficult phase of my life.

i going to be alone from tmr onwards, and i hate to be alone.
and i forsee nights after nights of cryings....

P.S. its really much tougher than i thought it would be for me

2008-09-06T18:08:00.005+08:00

FINALLY! INTERNET CONNECTION!!!!!!

okay so today is the first day that i'm gonna stay at this rented apartment, which explains why i get to use the internet. As for the past few days, i was living in a hotel on the first two days and at my dad's friend's house for the next three days.

i don't know where to start, because so many things have happened since my previous blog post. hah.

okay so....lets start from before i left for hongkong.

FRIDAY (29 August)
Went back to Xinmin for teachers' day celebration.
managed to catch some of the performance in the hall haha. then it was just going around to find teachers, and of course meeting up with friends (:
had a nice lunch with mr chan, junyi, rose, kuay huay.

Went to cousin's house for a sleepover with my other cousin! (confusing? haha)
Then we both went to watch Huaykuan's dance concert because I got free tickets from someone! haha. anyway the concert was so nice!! just like the rehearsal that i saw, only with a few more dances cos i didn't really watch the finale and liang laoshi's dance the last time.
and it nice going with my cousin to watch because we haven't really gone out like this before, but anyway, after the performance we went to back to my cousin's house
and we watched movie, gossip, chatted with cousins and all. Ahh i just really love going to my cousin's house for a sleepover, hope we'll get to do that again sometime soon!

SATURDAY (30 August)
woke up and received a call from my mum.
she said that the student visa had arrived at my house so we are leaving for Hongkong the next day. and i was.....

SHOCKED.

too fast. i still have plans for Sunday and Monday, but I'M LEAVING THE NEXT DAY ALREADY?

made a lot of calls, sms-es to inform people and change of plans.
then i left for bugis to get the box thing for zls's teachers day present and to meet ebird to settle the flower and cookie stuffs for the Huay kuan dancers that night.
we went back to my house and everything was just SO RUSH after i found out that i was leaving the next day.
i remember that it was raining SO HEAVILY when we got down the bus and i only had a pathetic small unbrella to share, so we both tried to sqeeuze in, but the first step we took out of the bus stop, VOOOM we were both drenched hahahha! so we started running and all and it was so much fun even though we both got really wet, but i really enjoyed it.
reached my house and we started writing the notes for the dancers and attaching them to the roses and cookies, it took us longer than we expected, but i guess that's considered my last time spending time with ebird like this before a really long time...

after both of us got changed and all, we cabbed down to Victoria Theatre to meet up with the Huaykuan dancers backstage, gave them the roses and cookies. And they gave me a farewell present by the people from Huaykuan! (:

after that went to meet limin and joey to bake the cupcakes and cornflakes thing for zls.
limin and i went to the supermarket to get the baking ingredients. it was already 9pm when we met to get the ingredients, but no choice cos i'm leaving the next day.
then limin and i took a bus to joey's house and waited sooooo long for the bus, but it was nice cos we had a really nice chat (:
then on the relatively long bus ride, i opened the present from Huaykuan and started reading them. it was really sweet of everyone and i was quite surprised because i thought that some of them actually don't really know me, yet they still left a message and all. everyone was really encouraging and HAHA to the big and small sizes of hand shapes by everyone.

reached joey's house and it was quite late by that time already.
started baking! it was really fun baking together, not the first time baking, but the first time the three of us are doing it together, hopefully not the last though.
anyway it was really fun cos we did all the melting together, all the mixing together, all the measuring together, all the spilling everything together, all the getting dirty together.
great fun really.
and we ate a lot of the cornflakes thing after we made them and some of the cupcakes (woops)
it was yummy. was hoping that zls will like them

then it was about 1am already, but we still haven't make the card for zls yet, so we just hurried up to joey's room and decided how we want it to be, joey and limin were so sleepy by then and i was practically the one doing the whole card lor, hahah but nevermind lah.

on a side note, when i was in hongkong already, limin told me that the cornflakes and cupcakes were ants infested!!!!!!!!!! I SPENT SO MUCH TIME AND EFFORT MAKING THEM WITH JOEY AND LIMIN AND OUR EFFORTS HAVE GONE DOWN THE DRAIN. to say the truth, i was quite disappointed when i heard about it...but oh well, can't do anything also.
but heard that they re-made the cornflakes and gave them to zls haha. well, its just not the same. which is the reason why i insisted that we make them together before i leave..

left at 2am and when i got back home, continue packing my lugguage while talking on the phone with elizabeth, when everything was done i was so tired that i just plonk down on my bed..

SUNDAY (31 August)
woke up and rush again.
reached the airport and SO MANY people came.

i really bad at expressing my feelings, so i don't really know what to say

but I MISS EVERYONE!

well, let the pictures do the talking, but i'll upload them another time, because i don't really have time today and there is a lot of photos!

RECEIVED LOTS AND LOTS OF PRESENTS! and most of them were hand-made with A LOT of effort, so i was really touched and all by everyone, cos i know that they love me, and i love them a lot a lot a lot!!!

When it was time to go through the departure gates......it was.............how do i say.......
full of 不舍得-ness.
and i was fine at first, i know that i'm definately gonna miss everyone, but my emotions then were stable.
until when people started hugging me at the last moment...i was like..."okay i'm gonna cry soon if you guys hug me any further!"

so i went through the door and i didn't want to turn back, cos if i turned back, i know i'll start crying like crazy and start regretting that i've made this decision and i'll so want to stay in Singapore but i'll have no choice by then. so i just tried to remain calm and everything....

then junyi called. her voice was a little shivering and i can tell that she was already crying, and she asked me "why you don't turn around one.."
wah siao, then suddenly i started crying like crazy liao. couldn't control myself at all, and when i was already inside waiting for the plane and all, i just couldn't control myself. i miss everyone already and i can't wait to be back in Singapore. the tears just kept on flowing...

as the plane took off, i took one last look at Singapore-my home.
and for the first time, flying towards another country didn't seem so happy and excited. it was more of the uncertain-ness, the nervous-ness and just the feeling of being alone.

reached Hongkong in the evening, went to check in to a hotel that is just 2 minutes away from the Hongkong Academy for Performing Arts.
went to cafe-de-coral for dinner, and went to bed after that.

MONDAY(1 SEPTEMBER)
i was all prepared to go for lessons on the first day of school already, although i had absolutely no idea what class, where to go, what to do.
so went to the school to register first, and it took so long that i didn't even have a chance to attend my classes!
after registration at the admin block, i was taken to meet my advisor in the dance school.
my advisor is Mandy Petty and she is SUPER NICE LAH! she helped me out a lot and we registered my courses together and all, she is the musical theatre teacher, but since APA doesn't have musical theatre in the Dance school anymore, she now teaches the electives and is the advisor for Diploma 1 students.

anyway i think that in the future, musical theatre will be in its own school of APA and not in the dance school of APA, so that is why musical theatre is taken out of the dance school in APA. thats what Mandy Petty told me haha, to give musical theatre equal importance as drama, music, dance etc. school

oh and Shen Pei Qi actually wanted me to join the Diploma 2 for my chinese dance classes! haha i was really happy. but then the Dip 2 chinese classes clashes with my ballet classes, and i can't miss ballet. so i couldn't join the Dip 2. but i'm happy that i almost had the chance to (:

after that, Mandy took me to introduce me to my classmates. they were having ballet.
so we went in, and it was so weird cos everyone was like staring at me like i'm some alien or something! then Mandy said " say hello (: "
and then everyone waved at me haha. stayed to watch the class a little.

then went off to do my bank account and all the other stuffs.
didnt go for any classes ):
so in the end i still missed my first day of school even though i reached Hongkong before 1st Sept.

TUESDAY( 2 SEPTEMBER)
sort of my first day of school!

went to school and i was so blurr. then i met one of my classmates in the lift, he told me about my locker room and all.
then had Fundamentals for the first lesson.
Fundamentals is basically Anatomy.
just introduce ourselves...and we had to draw ourselves three times and i'm have no artistic talent i think i draw until i look like a ghost.
nevermind about that.
but yay the class is taught in english cos the teacher is from brazil i think. haha so i can understand the lesson

BY THE WAY, EVERYONE IS SUPPOSE TO HAVE AN ENGLISH NAME! SO MY NAME IS NATHALIE. yes hahaha, i know its really weird and funny, but yes my name is nathalie. (sounds familiar right, sajc people?)
anyway my classmates have really interesting english names......
they are called, rainbow, nature, water, skinny etc...

then had ballet technique.
every one of our class is extremly basic because all the teachers want us to get our posture correct first, get our muscle correct and everything. so we did a lot of basic exercise to strengthen this and that.
the class was conducted in a little of english and more or cantonese, so i'm quite lost.

contemp technique
we did some contemp movements lor hahah! it was nice cos the class was in taught in both the chinese lauguage and the english language (:

I LOVE DANCING TO A PIANIST!

had lunch.
i think i'm really lucky to have nice classmates. and they asked my to join them for lunch! i was really happy haha (:
and they were really nice and friendly to me, they helped my order my food, intro me to the canteen, and they were just really nice people. i'm really thankful

left the academy for a while to settle my Hongkong identity card...

then came back for Acrobatics class.
it was really fun! its like Huay kuan.
Acrobatics is one of the electives but this elective is compulsory for chinese dance major students.
we did handstands and some rolling on the mat.

after that had Tap class
haha my really nice senior was so nice to lend me her Tap shoes for a year so that i don't have to buy one cos its expensive haha.
Tap was fun! my teacher is Mandy Petty and is a really fun-loving person!
hahha love Tap classes.

WEDNESDAY AND ONWARDS (cos i'm too lazy to blog le)
actually theres so much more i want to say but i'm quite lazy.
nevermind, i shall blog them next time.

so here is my time table.

MONDAY- ballet technique, contemp technique, intro to music, lunch, Body conditioning(yoga), Chinese folk, Jazz.

TUESDAY- Fundamentals, Ballet technique, Contemp Technique, lunch, Acrobatics (2 hrs 45 mins), Tap

WEDNESDAY - Chinese technique, Ballet technique, Improv. and rep, lunch, Contemp technique, 普通话

THURSDAY - Intro to performing arts, English, free period, lunch, Inprov. and rep, Chinese folk, Tap, Cantonese

FRIDAY - Fundamentals, Ballet technique, contemp technique,lunch,Chinese technique, Intro to music, Jazz

So basically i start at 9am everyday and end at 7pm everyday.
but on wednesday i end at 5.30pm
and on thursday i end at 8.30pm

each class is 1hr 15 mins, and you have a 15 min break between each class to move to your next class venue.

the APA studios are big!!!!!!!
you definately have space when you dance. i have all my ballet class and some of my contemp class in Studio 6, which is the second biggest dance studio in APA and its huge
even the smaller studios are big
so its really fun.

Oh yah, i had the worst class ever on wednesday for my chinese technique class!
IT WAS TERRIBLE!
the teacher conducts her class ENTIRELY in cantonese
then she asked who can't understand them i raised my hand..then she found out i'm from Singapore and such...
and then she look at me sort of angrily and said "你很麻烦leh".
so she kept saying cantonese and i didn't understand so i just had to copy,
so sometimes will do wrongly cos i don't know the beat and all.
and she keeps scolding me and scolding me,
like if i got the beat wrong or what, she will "haiya" at me or come and hit my head or something.

wah i was really quite demoralised at that time.
cos i don't understand a single thing at all.
then cantonese is driving me crazy!!!!!!!!

oh but i like improvisation class haha
its conducted entirely in cantonese too, but at least she will try to help me out when i couldn't understand, and during impro class, we do really fun things.
at first i though i won't like the class because you have to choreograph or something...
but then during the class its really like we can do any movement we want and no one will say anything. its like free moving and its really relaxing as well. love impro class!

okay so more info about the place i'm staying.

its about 15-20 minutes away from the academy. so quite convenient.
and my landlady is REALLY NICE to me (:
hahaha she graduated from HKAPA film and television 5 years ago, so that makes her my senior hahah! what a coincidence!
she works in Disney and she is a voice dubber, she is the voice of a few of the disney characters you see on television! so cool eh? haha, but i don't know which disney character though, haven't ask haha.

anyway i'm too lazy to post up pics already, shall do it next time (:

I MISS EVERYONE IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. cantonese is killing me.

2008-08-31T10:22:00.002+08:00

been really rush.

so many things have happened but i've got no time to blog.

will try and get some internet connection there, and will blog really soon once everything has calmed down.

till then (:

2008-08-28T23:49:00.010+08:00

i'm supposed to be at Hongkong now feeling excited and nervous about my orientation tmr.

but........you know...

haha. anyway had fun today too!

joey and limin came over after their school and we slacked around in my house watching lots of videos and laughing about everything. running in circles around me for who-knows-what reason.

checking out my lugguage and what i should/should not bring over. standing in the line infront of the mirror and play the telepathy game that really got us laughing and in awe of how our minds can think alike. drinking tom yum soup that i thought was spicy while joey and limin thought it was not spicy, but the soup was so good! laughing at the stupid small movements/mistakes that we did when we were dancing last year and this year.

went over to AMK hub later to meet elizabeth and she passed me the thumbdrive and decided to go home instead of having dinner with us. but i understand, cos she looked SO TIRED!

have more rest yah bird (:

went to limin's house to put down our stuffs before we went down to the hawker centre to have our ba chor mee and bbq squid that we've been craving for, okay maybe i was the one who craved for it. yea i'm a pig.

i remember every single time when we went there to eat, its like our usual place already.

later on, went back to limin's house and we just slacked for a really long time.

talked a lot in limin's room. joey was obsessed with her storybooks and started reading them and ignoring us. then i tried to snatch it away from her so that she will not ignore us but she just kept taking more books to read. then limin went to do her chem homework and started ignoring me too. so i just stared into space and stoned. but i felt happiness. i loved the chats, loved the silence.

and we were talking during dinner about how we met and how we started getting close to each other in the midst of so many weird things that were happening.

i think its not so much of how amazing it is that we got close to each other, but rather how we remained so close despite all the different circumstances and of how we still got even closer despite the lesser time spent together.

anyway,

ba chor mee and bbq squid!

me, limin, joey.

overdue photos from 08A03 dinner at chomp chomp!

group pictures

leftovers mixed together and i had to eat that because i lost in the stupid number game! but one spoon of it only lah, and it taste quite alright..i guess...

had ice cream with some of them after chomp chomp at ice3.

so tmr is teacher's day celebration and i'm going back to xinmin with wanling and gang.

and hopefully i can have lunch with junyi and rose!! okay must sms them to ask them what time they're going back, since both of them have school.

i'm not going for open class at NAFA tmr cos i'm staying over at my aunt's house. last gathering with cousins! and i'm still not sure if i'm going for Honglei this sun..hmm..

i'm kind of scared about next week already. everything is happening so fast, and i'm feeling so confused because i'm not sure if i want to leave here or not.

P.S. i would love to. but i'm not sure if time allows us. lets cherish every moment we'll have tmr, hope to see you in school (:

2008-08-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

okay so things have changed a little.
my dad says that if i manage to get the visa by sunday, then i'll leave on sunday!
but i'm quite sure that wouldn't happen...so yea. cos they usually take 2 working days to process everything.

already have plans for the days remaning up to tues! (:

i feel like i still want to play more! i don't want to go back to studying so soon!
well, there are still dance classes everyday, but i kind of don't want to study for dance history, for all the other academic subs, i'll just....not understand.

ahh lets just let things take its natural course.

2008-08-27T14:22:00.002+08:00

FLIGHT CHANGES AGAIN!
This time, its 95% confirmed.

i'm leaving on 2nd Sept, flying off at 1.30pm

APA emailed me today telling me that my visa is approved and APA can collect it this friday.
So APA is going to courier it to me on friday and i will most prob receive it on monday, fly off on tues.

Missing both the orientation and first two days of school ):
but thank god that my visa is done!

and i can go and watch the huay kuan concert already! buying the sat tics.
this friday is NAFA open class but i don't think i'm going cos i'm going to my cousin's house
hmmm....wait does this mean that i have to go for NAFA rehearsal next monday?!?

i hope i'll receive my visa on monday, hope that the courier people will be efficient! (:

2008-08-26T22:19:00.014+08:00

went to SAJC this morning. and i could actually wake up haha!

there were very little people in school because most classes meet directly at their service learning place, but since our class already finish our service learning last week, we had to go for flag raising.

anyway, went to find an empty classroom to do the post reflections, but i slacked around since i didn't have to do it, and i did the coverpage cos i'm the most free one! our class's absentee rate is the ultimate , everyday sure got a few people never turn up

leonard, the birthday boy came late today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONARD! celebrated his birthday at the pop cafe.

haha this poster was pasted around the school and on some of our backs! Attention seeking!

The cake that was baked by rasul, terrance and phyllis, its chocolate cake with macadamia nuts

Elise, charlene, leonard.

We also sort of celebrated the birthday of elise and charlene cos theirs is next week

Anyway, they are having a hard time cutting the cake because the cake was as hard as a stone, so its like super difficult to cut it!

But the cake was yummy! loved the chocolate coating!

Leonard with the tradition cap that rasul will give haha! i had the yellow one on my birthday.

08A03!

Group pic! haha funny bunch of people (:

went home and fell asleep for so long!

then met ebird after her class

we went to costume connection to get ballet tights.

and i also got a new canvas dance shoe! Sansha Pro 1C! haha i've been contemplating for so many weeks already, and i finally got it. its nice (:

had really good fries and starbucks and we were so full after that.

walked around and got stuffs. Ebird finally got her bagpack too!

went home on the free 147 that was paid for by Great Eastern Life cos its their 100 years today.

and btw, my mum works in Great Eastern Life, so yay to Great Eastern Life!

i'm happy today because i went out with elizabeth and i felt so nice i really wouldn't mind hanging out like this everyday (hopefully in hongkong next year)

and i love my Sansha Pro 1C (:

but i am spending too much money.....

P.S. i'm sad about leaving too, but i'm more sad that i have to miss the orientation and maybe the first few days of school because i'm afraid that i won't be able to fit in and everything when i go there and then i'll be leading such a sad life there. i want to enjoy myself there, i want to make more friends, i want to dance. i just hope things will go smoothly..

2008-08-26T00:08:00.005+08:00

had dinner with people from 08A03 at chomp chomp!

hahaha i love my class! its full of funny and crappy people lah
this will be the first and last time i'll have this kind of dinner with the class
and poor looyee is getting "bullied" by everyone! its so funny how the guys in my class actually tease people!

in a short period of 5 months, i've grown to love this class, to love the people and the laughter.

shall post up the pics either tmr or another day.
and i'm going to SAJC tmr! cos its service learning day, which means NO LESSON! hahah and means spending more time with 08A03 (:

and also, sleep early tonight!

picture from that day at elizabeth's church
Jump shot!
elizabeth is at the back doing some 后腿 thing, and thats me in front doing 双飞燕! i'm like taking up 3/4 of the pic liao haha!

2008-08-25T12:51:00.002+08:00

my flight has been changed to 8.30am this friday.
i'm feeling quite disappointed because i won't be able to watch huaykuan and all my friends will be having school at that time.
i'm a bit unhappy because my parents never ever discuss things with me and they always take their own action. so they booked the tickets and everything without discussing anything with me.

i know that i'm being such an idiot and selfish person now because i should be grateful that they already help me book the tickets and paid for every single thing, but still i just hope that they'll at least discuss with me.

well, if i'm going on friday morning, it means that i will already be missing the orientation day, so its doesn't matter when i go, as long as its before 1st sept.
Saturday is a good day what, its the weekends and i'll be able to watch huay kuan on friday night and everything, i think everyone will be more free on saturday than on friday.
and my dad refuses to change the date to saturday because he just changed it to friday, but if he had just asked for my opinion, then things will be different eh?
btw, you don't need to pay any money for changing the dates of flight because the flight tickets that my father bought is by some points exchange thing. So i'm not wasting my parents money by wanting to change it.
as long as there are seats left in the plane, the ticket can be changed.

ah crap i don't know why but i'm feeling quite down by this.

okay but since my visa still may not come by friday, so i still cling on to that glimpse of hope that
the flight may have to be postponed again.

2008-08-24T23:13:00.019+08:00

i'm sleepy.
had such a hard time trying to wake up this morning for Zhou lei laoshi's class.

but managed to reach Emily Hill in time.

today's class was normal. ballet again, and during plies on the barre today i unknowingly 背手 instead of putting my hand at first position. then i screwed up my turns really badly, since my toe injury, i've lost touch of my turns cos i haven't practise them due to my toe, and my turns are getting so bad now i want to scream at myself for being so stupid and lousy.

i miss Dinghong laoshi's class.

today's lesson was really fast again cos of the rehearsal later on. for centre work we did jetes and tendus. across the floor, then end.

oh and before class, we were carrying the portable barres to set it up and then the barre accidently dropped and the heavy wooden bar just bang my right 夸, it was so painful, and now there is a painful blue black on my hip.

nope no group photos of Honglei class because we haven't had a proper class for 2 weeks already and since we've temporary combine class two weeks ago, the people initially from my class stop coming for technique trainings and only turn up for the rehearsal, so there is no chance for a class photo ):

suppose to go out with XMCD people but it was canceled in the end cos almost everyone couldn't make it. to say the truth i was quite disappointed at first, but i'm okay after a while.

So in the end i was quite bored and i didn't want to wait 4 hours for elizabeth, jiayin and agnes to finish their rehearsal, i decided to leave first.

went to limin's house to pass time and everything, it turned out to be one of the nicest things i've done today, had lunch with limin's family, bak ku teh.

even if its just sitting on the bed talking, i'm happy because i'm comfortable and i'm with people i care about. haha limin i'm gonna miss you and thanks for letting me join you and your family out of a sudden, but isn't this the kind of spontaneous stuffs we always do (:

went back to bugis after that to meet elizabeth, jiayin and agnes!we FINALLY took neoprints together!!! after how long arh, i think we've been saying it for a few months liao.

although there isn't any class photo of Honglei, but..

Emily Hill, where we have to climb up the hill for class every Sunday

The dance room with a lot of people in the outer space-looking 化蝶 costume.

visible swimming pool on the way to Emily hill. everytime we walk pass it, we will always say we want to jump right into the pool after class because we are always so sticky from the all the sweat during training.

and ofcourse, elizabeth, jiayin and agnes!

all the fun we had during all the trainings, i love training with you guys lah!

Jia yin and Agnes unglam!

Jiayin being eaten up..?

i'll miss buying food and drinks up to the cinema to eat after every class! and i love all the times we've spent together. shopping and joking around, class were always nice with you guys!

Dinghong laoshi and Zhou lei laoshi.

a great couple haha!

wasn't really taught by Zhou lei laoshi, except for these two weeks, haha i'll remember how good he is with his words, always able to make an impact, and he always seem to be worried with something, so funny and cute lah!

Dinghong laoshi! i've really learnt a lot from her, and i've improved so much under her. I really enjoyed every single one of Dinghong laoshi's lesson! and she is so strict yet understanding at the same time (:

Hong Lei Cultural & Performing Arts International (long name huh)

need i say more? i've posted so many post about how lovely the people and classes there are.

i proud to be the pioneers of this company with great dance teachers. love my batch mates too!

i've improved a lot and learnt a lot there.

i wished we had proper lessons for the past 2 weeks, and i wished that we didn't have to cut down technique training hours to have more rehearsals. but oh well, may the concert be a great one, although i'm actually quite sure that the Guangdong Song & Dance Ensemble will be stunning, they are professionals after all, so yea it'll be a good show. As for the item that Honglei will be performing, its not technically demanding but i love the music, and i will love to dance it cos it makes the dancer feel so nice doing it, gets a little boring at times, but lets just pray that the dance will be neat and nice (:

both Huay kuan and Honglei are the latest classes i've joined, but i've definately had a fufilling time there and i've really learnt so much from them! <3

okay i'm feeling more sleepy now, my head hurts from the lack of sleep. yay i can finally wake up as late as i want tmr because there is nothing in the morning!

may be meeting 08A03 for dinner after their class tmr! haha we'll see..

off to bed!

2008-08-24T01:37:00.017+08:00

another day of past midnight blogging.
i'm feeling sleepy because of the late night sleeps and eventful days,

feeling quite weird now, had a great day out today, yet a not so good one at home.

but well, things just can't always be good and nice eh?

Last Huay kuan lesson today.
class was going really really slowly today at the beginning because about 16 little girls from the other class joined our class for a while and zhong laoshi had to teach them all one by one to make sure they understood what was going on.

so class was really squeezy too!

then when the little girls left, we continued, did the normal usual stuffs and ended after the flips again.
took photos! then gladys came with more people from the sunday class and we took more group photos again! but i don't have those photos with me yet. haha, and its really great cos everyone was spontaneous and all. received the concert t-shirt as well, and its nice! (:

i really really love Huay kuan because everytime i'm there, the enthusiasm of the people there really influence me. and no matter how lazy i feel about training and all, once i get into the dance room, everything and everyone there really make me feel like i could just jump up and train straight away. Huay kuan lessons are always FULL of laughter, and i really love that. Its really like, there is a time for work and a time for play. I love it how everyone will joke around yet be serious about their own training and improvement. And i've seen SO MANY good dancers there, i've learnt a lot from everyone. love the encouragement that everyone gives each other, and i really can't wait for Huay kuan every week. Cos i know every lesson will be a great one, every lesson will be filled with so much fun and training.

Huay kuan dance studio! where everything takes place haha. and the guys are trying out more stunts on the blue mat in the middle after all the flips, as usual.

Zhong laoshi trying to be funny and wear that weird helmet thinking that his head will not hurt when doing some head stunts, but i guess it didn't work out that well....haha!

Elizabeth, Zhong laoshi and me.

haha, WONDERFUL TEACHER! i'll remember all the "torture" from him every lesson where he'll try all ways and means to make our body more flexible and stronger. but seriously, i love the tortures (:

and also all the guidance and encouragement that he gives, regarding everything that we do, and he is the first teacher i had who actually goes to every single one of his students to help them with every movement, its great cos you'll know where you go wrong haha, not forgetting his strong body! always manages to catch us from every fall that we make while doing any flips or stunts (:

well, he is more like a senior, a friend, someone who really mixes well with his students and he is just funny lah, together with all the other humourous Huay kuan dancers!

me and ZINA TAN!

she is so cute lor. grateful to have people like her in the the class, and i remember that it was her, together with ningli, weijia and joylynn who took the initiative to talk to ebird and i when we first came into the class, and also to include us in everything, thanks for making me feel welcomed (:

DON'T BE LATE ANYMORE! (:

Peisi, me and ivonn.

dancemates that made saturday class more fun to be in! i'll remember the encouragements and all the talks about our future and all, may we all become great dancers or people that we want to be!

Okay so maybe its Zuyou's turn to fool around, was the helmet really useful?

haha really good dancer! and i look up to him a lot. great in every kind of dance. Chinese dance, Ballet, Contemporary, Hip Hop, etc.

His attitude towards his own learning really inspires me and i'm sure he'll be an outstanding dancer in the future, his eyes just shines when he dances.

haha okay lets all work hard together! (:

Liang laoshi and me

although she doesn't teach me, but she always treats us like a part of the Huay kuan family, and i don't feel like a stranger in Huay kuan, don't feel out of place (:

Elizabeth and I.

haha we always love to roll up our pants during lesson, although it looks like we are in some kind of flood, but its really much more comfortable training like this (:

Saturday class people! AWESOME bunch of people, fun loving and always enthusiatic about everything. People who welcomed me with open arms and made me feel like part of the family. Their happiness is contagious! It gets to me every single time. I love Huay kuan!

hmms, so after class, went to have dinner with wanling, germaine, christabel, limin, munling and jingwen.

they totally tricked me lah, made me go to newyork newyork, sakae, thai express, pizza hut and then finally telling me that they are actually in the Hongkong Cafe. and i was like a total retard walking into everyone of the shops looking for them.

Dinner was nice, i miss them, haha remember those days of lower sec when we were still in same class!

we went to ger's cousin's hse later on, but wl and limin had to leave after a while.

so left the four of us. and we totally just sat down and talked for like forever.

I love talking like this with friends and people i love, it doesn't matter where you are because as long as you are with your friends, you can always have fun and talk till forever.

i enjoyed every single moment of it, and i'm can't wait for another outing when i come back! meanwhile, we'll all work hard in our own schools! just hang in there (:

and i think my flight has to be postponed.

the government sector in hongkong stopped working cos of the typhoon and all, so that means that my Visa will not be ready in time too lah. haha, anyway, we'll just see how things go.

i have to sleep now, going for Zhoulei laoshi's class again at 10 am tmr, i'm gonna be a walking zombie!

I love today (:

2008-08-23T02:59:00.016+08:00

Its 3am in the morning and i'm still up..

have huay kuan tmr and i seriously don't know how am i going to wake up and survive class and then dinner with friends.

just finished watching a hongkong movie on channel U haha,

had a nice supper with nat and elizabeth just now after NAFA, took a nice warm bath, i wanted to blog, but then i decided to watch tv instead cos i was addicted to the show!

i continued packing my lugguage today, haven't gotten everything but i'm halfway there lah.

then went to heartland mall to get my contacts and meet limin.

went to bugis to shop for joey's birthday present. Got her a top, a cute helium balloon and two yummy slices of cake haha.

met up with elizabeth and joey after that and we went to pasta mania to celebrate.i'm really very very happy everytime i'm with them, and well i hope joey like the stuffs that we gave her. dinner was great with the cake and all the friends haha (:

went for NAFA after that. possibly my last NAFA class already, but who knows i may go nxt week if my flight has to be postponed.

tried out the sui yue ru ge costume that has been altered and yay my pants is of the correct length and size already.

then zls said some stuffs about the rehearsal and she suddenly just mentioned about the lesson being my last lesson. and i was like kind of shock cos i didn't really think she would think something of it. but anyway she said some stuffs to encourage me and all, well i'll try my best there.

lesson went as per normal, we did the question B stuffs today

i think i prefer B cos there is no fan1 shen1 zu3 he2 haha!

anyway we did everything except for zang4 zu2 today an zls ended the lesson quite late, well, later than usual, i guess its cos my last lesson le, next time maybe no more chance haha.

after class, took class photos! Jiexin came after class just to take photo with me, i was kind of touched lah. and then i went to the dance room next to our class to take some photo thing for the nov concert incase.

and then i took a photo with zls haha! yay i'm quite glad cos zls forever don't want to take photo de, and this time she actually agreed to take a photo with me haha.

received presents from maria(sad she couldn't come for class), jia jia, huimin and yaqi haha, remember when i first joined the class, jiajia huimin yaqi and i were sort of the secondary school gang haha! thanks for all the gifts!

today while we were taking the photos and all, i could definately feel the warmth of the class. Even though we may not be talking too much during class, neither do we go out outside of class, but i really think that being with the people in our class, is like being with people you've known for a long time even if you actually don't really know them, you can just talk freely and you know they'll listen, you know they care.

i love my NAFA class.

i love every single one of them for who they are, love them for all their help, encouragements, love them for working together, for improving together, love them for all the regarding me as one of their classmates, dancemates, friends. love them for all the fun and laughter i've had in the class. i'll never ever forget times in NAFA, two great years with lovely people.

i'll definately miss the class, miss everyone, miss taking exams with them, miss helping out in the exams with jia jia and huimin, and gossiping haha! i'll miss feeling the anxiety of exams with the funny people in the class. miss the changing clothes behind the curtain. i'll miss training with everyone.

went out for supper with nat and ebird after class, long time since the last one, and a long time till the next one. but i've enjoyed every supper with them, every time we've met or chat. thanks for everything. its always great to have some good old supper (:

and when i was back home, i felt like i'm really missing NAFA, well i didn't know that i would feel like that but when everything was just over and done, the sense of loss starts coming and lingers on..

Joey the birthday girl!

not all present, but well, i still love my NAFA class (:

joey and limin took my cam while i was in another dance room, and look what they did to pollute my camera! haha nah, just kidding, i love them to bits! They made NAFA so much more enjoyable (:

Victoria fooling around, and i don't know what she is doing. thats shao le and jiaxian at the back, i suppose they've just finished changing behind the curtains haha!

limin, zls, joey and me.

met huizhi and zhenjie at chomp chomp duirng supper! coincidence haha, and they are still as happy and fun loving as ever!

Nat, me and ebird. Supper when i come back yah!

Thanks for all the well wishes (:

2008-08-21T19:46:00.003+08:00

hahaha i started packing my lugguage already
amazed at how early i start this time,
so joey and limin i didn't lose the bet okay

and i seriously don't know when will i be able to go hongkong cos my student visa is still processing, i may not make it for the orientation next friday, which kinda sucks for me lah.
so actually i'm not sure if tmr will be my last NAFA lesson, i hope it'll be though, i don't want to miss the orientation and everything. its kind of bad being the foreign student eh, so many things to take care of. and i'm kind of afraid that i won't be able to fit in, but i'll try my best though, i hope things go well when i'm there. the foundation students are separated into 2 classes, A and B, i'm in B i think...hope my class will be great.

actually i don't really have the feeling like i'm gonna leave soon,
but this weekend is filled with so many meet up with friends and cousin, makes me excited yet i'm feeling more and more bu4 she3 de2 already. nevermind its time to get my msn working after so many years.

my maid and i made phillipines rice cakes today and they are so yummy, but fattening lah, cannot eat too much. okay i already did.

tmr is friday and then it'll be the weekends, love the weekends.
dance classes and going out with friends!

oh i just realised smth. if i can't make it for the orientation next friday and i'm in Singapore,
means i can go for Huay Kuan's dance concert!
and Zina Tan's birthday is coming hahaha!

P.S. Thank you so much for the Most Meaningful birthdy present i've ever received. I knew it was you right from the beginning because only you would do such a thing for me, and HOW CAN I NOT RECOGNISE YOUR HANDWRITING HAHA! Thanks for everything really, i love you too (:

2008-08-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

i forgot that i didn't blog hahaha.

went out early in the morning today with my maid, we went to get some stuffs for hongkong, and i bought a lot of stuffs. bag, wallet, top, pants and food!
quite fun lah, and i need to get contacts, i think i'll just change to monthly instead of daily contacts, although i know i will be too lazy to clean it.
no cannot! Li Ruimin you cannot be lazy when you are in Hongkong, if not you'll just suffer lah!

okay and HKAPA replied me today and they just said that i am in group B for the orientation, but i don't know why my name isn't in the previous email. then i called them regarding my student visa and it is not ready yet! i think i really have to change my date of flight lah, how to go without my visa? and my parents are sort of blaming me that everything is so last minute and why the visa couldn't be settled ealier so our flight won't be so unconfirmed and rush.
but HELLO? i can't control anything about the student visa! i'm not the immigration department! and i sent my student visa on the earliest date possible, which is one day after i got my acceptance letter. i sent it the next day already leh, how early is that huh, and i'm in Singapore somemore, like as if i can do anything to get my visa earlier, its like really unreasonable lah.

anyway, went back to XMCD today, probably the last time till Hongkong.
lesson was quite boring for me, but well i love my dancemates there, i think that is the reason why i keep going back. even though i have really fond memories with XMCD, but i feel that everything is different now, the people, the atmosphere. Those fond memories are really in the past already and XMCD is just different now.
i hope that the juniors will be able to experience the kind of happiness that i've felt when i was in XMCD because really, its great. and i'm sure they will, seeing them like who they are now, i'm sure that they'll have a lot of fun in XMCD haha, and being able to do taoyao will really bring their dance experience another level higher. I can't wait to see XMCD shining again next year (:

went to limin's house after that to get my passport photo done.
then we watched the Xinthesis 2 video, i'm really thankful to Mr Tang for getting it done so quickly knowing i'll be leaving soon. anyway, had a great laugh at the video and it was quite fun to watch everything, although the person taking the video has really bad video-ing skills, i felt that so many parts of the dance were not taken properly that the essence of the various dances has been lost, and the camera is so bad that we all look short and fat, what a disproportionate video hah.

i can't get to sleep, don't know why.

P.S. Its Thursday, and i have one last star for today.

2008-08-19T23:16:00.007+08:00

okay i won't upload the huadie photoshoot photos cos they are all on elizabeth's facebook so jiayin and agnes you can go to elizabeth's facebook to take the photos (:

i have so many things that i have to buy yet i don't know how to get them and i have not much time to get them already.

my family is like arguing over what laptop i should get for hongkong, crap man its causing so much chaos.

and i received an email from HKAPA today, its the grouping list for the orientation day.

guess what? my name is not inside.

i'm like freaking out now cos i don't know why is it like that and even manuel's name is inside but my name is not. i hope nothing bad happens cos i better get into HKAPA if not my life will be ruin with nothing left for me to do back here in Singapore. i'll have no school already! I replied HKAPA and i really really hope that they'll tell me what is happening and please tell me my orientation group!

so today went to meet Elizabeth at Lasalle and she found an empty studio so we went in and played around while waiting for 6pm so that Elizabeth can go and meet ivonn for some choreo thing.

haha we tried loads of stuffs, but took only a few photos, and i love the studio cos the windows are so nice!

The studio with the ugly placed dance mat but lovely windows (:

me and ebird.

random pose (:

Hou4 Tui3

me and ebird again (:

2008-08-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

last week of Singapore
haven't started packing my stuffs but i'll start soon
and i've been trying to buy the stuffs i need for hongkong
well i'm like broke..

the photos of yesterday's rehearsal cannot be uploaded on my computer!
ahh i will upload them if i get the chance to use my bro's com ahha

felt like vomitting when i woke up today but it got better as the day went on.
met rose at amk hub today, poor rose was feeling so sick, but she still came (:
went for lunch and the both of us just basically talked and talked
and walked around the whole amk hub like ten times before going to xinmin coffeeshop to meet junyi whom had just finish her school and so nicely came down.
when i'm with rose and junyi, i really just think of the past two years with them.
and it gets to a point where i get quite sad cos the three of us are separated with our different schools and soon to be different countries, but i'm really glad that i have friends like them.
friends whom i will never ever want to lose even if we have lesser time for each other.
friends whom i will always feel comfortable with, regardless in silence or when we are playing a fool.
and i really feel very blessed that i have people like these in my life, they really make everything a whole lot better (:

yesterday during Honglei, i remember Dinghong laoshi saying to me “你什么时候回来，要回来我这里阿”
and when we were at huay kuan at night, Lin laoshi told me “你以后有回来的时候，就回来会馆阿”
i'm really happy that the both of them told me that because i feel like i'm welcomed in Honglei and Huaykuan, it makes me feel like i won't be forgotten and that i'll still be part of Honglei and Huaykuan even though i can't train there.
for huaykuan, i'm really a newcomer cos i joined this year, yet the people in Huaykuan welcomed elizabeth and i with their open arms, i'm really extremly thankful for that.
I really love both Huaykuan and Honglei, i will definately go back to Huaykuan and Honglei whenever i'm back in Singapore and i will really really really miss classes there and the friends there.
Both Huaykuan and Honglei are the two newest dance troupes that i've joined, yet i believe that i've learnt so much more and improved so much more in both of these places.

and i can't wait for the weekends again for more dance classes!

2008-08-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

woke up early to go for zhou lei laoshi's class
i was like half asleep on the way, couldn't really get up this morning.
anyway today cos we had the combine class, there were a lot of people
and everyone was really squeezing together at the barre
it was so uncomfortable.
and the entire lesson is ballet, actually i expected that liao but i still miss chinese dance!

did normal ballet stuff, it was quite uncomfortable for me at first cos the steps were new to my class people and we had to learn everything on the spot, but after a while it was fine cos the positioning and everything gets quite the same.
and the entire barre on my side was really shaky and everyone on the barre was having quite a hard time using it.
my toe still hurts crap.
today was yet another short class.
did extremly little centre work, just a few jumps only, then across the floor, then finish.

after that they had rehearsal and photoshoot for hua4 die2
i stayed back awhile, and just when i wanted to leave, it started raining heavily! so i stayed for everything, took a lot of photos! but i can't seem to upload now cos my computer is so retarded.
i'll try to upload them tmr.
and i'm so upset that next week's dinghong laoshi's lesson is cancelled AGAIN. like three weeks in a row liao lah, and next week is my last week somemore, so i didn't even get a chance to have my last dinghong laoshi's class ):

after that, ebird and i went to huay kuan!
to help to tend the ticket booth for the huay kuan dance concert.
it was quite okay lah, just sit there and wait for people haha, and we managed to sell tickets haha
feels quite weird sitting right smack at the main entrance of huay kuan.
anyway then we help to close the stall and keep everything after that.
we went to watch the huay kuan rehearsal at xiao2 li3 tang2

my goodness, it was such a great performance!
love EVERY SINGLE dance! love the choreography of all the dances
and everyone dances well lah! i'm so sad that i can't go for the actual performance,
all the dances really had an impact on me, and i really really feel like dancing with them when i watch them, they'll make you smile too (:
i was wowed when i watch the dances, i think it was also because i was so near to everyone, so you can feel the impact even more.
it is a quality performance definately worth watching! and the ticket prices are reasonable too!
EVERYONE MUST BUY TICKETS TO WATCH THE HOKKEIN HUAY KUAN DANCE CONCERT!!!!
xinmin dancers MUST go and watch!!

went for supper with ebird after that.
and ebird i had a really great talk with you tonight,
it was like an endless conversation, can't wait to see you on tuesday! (:

2008-08-17T00:38:00.005+08:00

its past midnight already!
today was such a great day

morning went for huay kuan
and almost thought that there is no lian4 gong1 cos i heard that they are having rehearsals for the performance. but in the end there is, and it was so short lah.
more people came today, don't really know them cos i think that they are from the sunday's class, but anyway, we still did the normal stuffs.
but today we ended just after all the flips. class was really short.
i think my yao1 really got problem liao, stupid lousy yao1 keep making my frontwalk so weird.
and seeing the guys try out stuffs is really so scary cos you keep feeling scared for them and some things that they do are really very dangerous, i don't think i'll ever be as daring as them haha.
i think i'll never be able to do a side somer lah, i got zero confidence.
but i want to do kong1 fan1s. i hope i'll learn in hongkong haha.
okay i really hate my yao1
i was really stony today in class, don't feel like talking much also, okay partly its cos of my toe, i hate it when things like these affect my dancing.
but anyway today when i was just trying out stuffs, i could solid triple pirouettes, so cool man, but only today lah, i think tmr my turns will be sucky again.

after i left huay kuan, went to bugis to meet limin and joey for NAFA at night
had dinner, we ate like crazy, i'm such a fat pig, i should really stop eating so much.
and we were really really full haha.
i think whenever i'm with joey and limin, its always full of laughter, i simply love it (:
went to NAFA after that

well, today's class was short!
i think we spent like half of the lesson trying out the costume for sui4 yue4
and i really really really think that the xinmin one is much nicer.
the NAFA's leotard cum top thing is weird. and everything about it just isn't as nice as the xinmin's one. the flower, the cutting, the back strap, the collar.
okay at least the ribbon at the back is okay.
and my pants! goodness man, my pants are freaking huge for me
i'm just stepping on myself everytime i walk, its SO SO SO long and big for me
the waist flower thing is also not as nice.
auntie michelle had to adjust the length of my pants by two inch and the waist by half an inch.
yes i'm short lah.
i know its quite bad to keep comparing the costume with the xinmin's one, but really, the xinmin's sui4 yue4 costume is nicer than the NAFA's sui4 yue4 one. and i'm not bias or siding xinmin when i say that.

after taking a long time settling the costume thing, we finally had lesson
today's lesson was really short, we only did one zu3 he2, which is meng2 gu3
i like meng2 gu3 cos it is fun to do! i think i like it best among all the three folk dance that we learnt.
partnered jia jia today, and halfway through the dance the both of us went too close to each other and our heads were like touching each other lah, abit too close liao lah.
anyway we went through the exam positions and all, quite fun lah, and meng2 gu3 always reminds me to the mongolian dance we did during kaleidoscope.

after class, joey's mum agreed to send me and limin back.
then driving halfway in the car, joey's mum said "i feel like eating durian, you all want to eat?"
and we were like okay....
then off we went to eat durian, it was already 10+ lah
but anyway it was nice,
we went to eat durian and drink coconut juice
i'm not really a durian fan, i just eat when people ask me to eat lor haha
and then we were extremly full! I SHOULD STOP EATING.
joey's mum fetched us home after that.

really enjoyed today, although there were only two short dance classes ahha.
love joey and limin, times with them are short but really well-spent (:

i'm going for Zhou lei laoshi's class tmr at 10am
so why am i still using the com and not sleeping?!

2008-08-15T23:14:00.004+08:00

finally the weekends are here
went to sajc this morning to settle my withdrawal and i've finally finally withdrawn from school.
i can't believe this whole thing took so long since the audition results.
from my parent's objection, to quarrels after quarrels, to the suddenly going overseas, to finding of teachers and admin people to sign my form, to asking my dad to write a parent's letter, i'm finally not in SAJC,
but hey, once a saint, always a saint!

attended extended chapel in the morning, it was quite interesting!
with all the acting by the saints for christ and the talk by an unique pastor that is really quite different from all the pastors i've seen so far.
it was funny, entertaining to a certain extent, and i'm just glad to be there.
and looyee was part of the cast too!
but after that i was kind of bored as everyone was busy studying for the history test later on in the day and i felt like i was going to affect them to not study if i stayed on, so i went home.
didn't get a chance to talk to looyee today! nevermind, i'm sure there will be chances girl (:

watched more videos at home and just basically slack around till i left the house to meet joey and limin!
we had dinner together, and i just love being with both of them, i realise that every single time i'm with them, i got the xing4 fu2 de4 gan3 jue2 (:
haven't gone out together for SO long, even though today was just for a short while of about 1 hour, i still feel very blessed.
we took neos today too! love the pictures. and it has been a zillion years since i took neos haha.
walked to NAFA after that.

well NAFA was actually relatively nice today.
we did all the zu3 he2 for question A,
and my toe is still painful ):
i have difficulties just trying to pointe, and today during the first few zu3 he2 i was trying not to strain it too much, but throughout all the floor zu3 he2s, my feet were cramping like crazy. and i was like "wah siao, dam weak lah, two days never use my feet then like that liao"
so the pain was like both my toe pain and my feet cramp, it was just terrible.
must be i never warm up properly also lah haha.

we skipped all the jumps cos there wasn't much time left,
somehow today's lesson felt fast, and less boring.
oh and i officially hate fan1 shen1, i dislike that zu3 he2
i hope i'll get question B during the exam and then i can skip doing fan1 shen1 zu3 he2 hahaha!
but actually i'm not sure if i'm going to continue grade exam in hongkong,
cos i've only found classes that are expensive with little training hours, and you have to learn the grade for two years before you can take the exam.
i don't want that.
i want to take the exam within one year, why can't they be more like NAFA, change all the two years grades to one year and add more hours of training to that one year to make up for the total hours needed to learn that grade.

Anyway, zls was being so cartoon today during zang4 zu2 wu3
she kept doing weird stuffs and it was quite funny.
i think i better start falling in love with zang4 zu2 wu3 and yun2 nan2 hua1 deng1 cos HKAPA focuses on these two ethinic groups for folk dance in foundation year.
i don't want to die there, so must learn as much as i can here first, although i have only two NAFA classes left before i leave.
actually, i think i'm more comfortable doing zang4 zu2 and yun2 nan2 hua1 deng1 now, as compared to last time, so at least i won't feel like these ethinic groups are foreign to me when i learn them in HKAPA.

oh and today zls splited the class up into the exam groups already, you really feel like the exams are coming!
and we almost had full attendance today! only yaqi didn't come, oh man, if not can take class photo liao, i even brought my camera.
i realised that i'm leaving in the week of open class,
and the open class day is my orientation, good luck to both NAFA people for open class and to me for my orientation! i hope my student visa will be ready soon.

anyway there is NAFA tmr, a make-up lesson for last friday's class.
i hope that i will be able to get to NAFA in time from huay kuan.
tmr is filled with dance classes! (:

i wish that my toe will recover soon.

P.S. i understand that you just want to leave things as it is, but i want you to know that i'm always here willing to listen to you, so if you have anything to say at all, you can just tell me, even if there are in bits and pieces, it doesn't matter cos i'll be here to piece them up.

2008-08-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

another day of staying at home.

been watching too many videos the whole day
but oh well, i'm going to sajc tmr, cos looyee is performing!
and mr tan wants to settle my paperwork for withdrawal.
that means waking up early tmr morning, not sure if i'll be able to though haha

and this weekend is packed with dancing as well.
but my toe still hurts like crazy):
there is nafa tmr,
huay kuan and nafa on sat
honglei on sun.
then after that its just one more week of singapore.

i'm feeling like some lazy bum now
my toe hurts so i can't even do anything productive at home
i'm so gonna deprove like crazy when it recovers.
i want to lian4 gong1 till i sweat like crazy, till my legs are tired, till i'm panting, till my body feels sore(okay maybe so sore)
i want to have lovely chinese dance music to dance to, i want to dance in a class with pianist!
i really can't wait to dance everyday and feel tired cos of it (:

going out with rose and junyi on monday!
not so sure where yet,
but i haven't seen them since the day of the audition results
so i'm looking forward! (:

2008-08-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

stayed at home the whole day
managed to pack my room
and its funny how you find some things that you've already long forgotten
looked through so many of my secondary school essays and homework, had a good laugh cos of the comments that teachers will write about my lousy piece of work
and i remember how cai cai was always chasing me for homework haha

i just remembered that i haven't withdraw from sajc yet
i better go and hand in the form to mr tan soon.

and my toe still hurts quite badly.
can't even walk properly, don't even mention dancing.
now i can't even jump around the house, i hate this feeling,
feel so useless.
i hope it heals soon!!!!
i have loads of dancing to do this weekend!

school is starting soon!!! (:

2008-08-12T21:21:00.002+08:00

i finally started packing up my things.
cos it finally struck me that time is running out real soon.
my room is still in a huge mess though cos i didn't really clear up much.
should i throw away my sajc worksheets? still don't know leh...

went to collect my medical report today
it was alright, and the doctor said that i am physically fit to study in the academy.
then went to xinmin.
initially i thought that i was going alone cos no one else could make it
and i was actually quite scared about going back alone, cos even though i've been back so many times, i still feel like an outsider, i don't even fit in xmcd anymore, everything is so strange to me.
but still i want to go back, cos ultimately i still have feelings for xmcd, i want to be back at that dance studio that provided me with so many wonderful memories, so i just went.
and then when i reached the dance studio i still feel weird cos everyone is staring at me like i'm some weirdo who keeps coming back.
oh well, it has always been like that. but anyway later on, joey walked in and it was then i felt a little better. didn't know that she would come. and it felt like god has sent someone to be there for me because He knew that i was uneasy. so thank you for that.

i think the situation in xmcd has really changed a lot since my time.
but yea we all expect that it will change, cos change is the only thing that doesn't change.
okay, confusing, i should just stop that.

anyway, i absolutely hate it when my parents and i are talking about something important and then my parents will just talk and leave the room at the same time, and when they've made their point they will just close the door. then i'm like "HUH?! aren't we in the middle of a conversation here?!" i get really irritated by that.

i think i'm such a moron cos i don't know how to take care of myself properly when i try out any dance stuffs, especially jumps. recently i've had bad landings on jumps TWICE!
first was during huay kuan when i landed badly on my ankle and it hurt for 2 days.
and then its today when i landed badly again and now my toe is really painful. it hurts when i do some stuffs and i pray that it recovers soon!!

i love my life now, because i get to wake up late on weekdays and just do whatever i want.
i don't feel bored yet, in fact i like the calm and serenity on weekdays morning and afternoon
its relaxing, and i've never felt this feeling for quite some time. so yaye to my days of no-need-to-go-to-school-already.

i should spend tmr morning packing up my room too.

2008-08-11T23:23:00.003+08:00

ebird came over to my house to do nothing

and we got really bored that we watched this really boring show

but oh well, it was just for an hour or so.

i got a call this morning from the clinic telling me that i can go and collect my medical report already.

so i went in the afternoon......and it was closed for lunch.

then i went home first and then went back there in the evening.....and it was closed for dinner.

so i didn't manage to collect it.

i shall just go back tmr...again.

i called the academy today. to ask about my student visa and the registration

and yay they've already sent my application form to the immigration, now we'll just have to wait and hopefully it'll be ready soon, they told me that it'll most probably be around the last week of August.

and they weren't sure that it'll be done by the orientation on 29th August, but i've already booked tickets to hongkong on the 26th, so i may have to change the date or something if my visa isn't ready by the 26th, so that means that i can't confirm when i'll be leaving although technically its the 26th.

and i was thinking today that i hope my classmates will be really spontaneous people

and we'll take a lot of crazy photos, dance photos

then we'll all wear different colour leotards for classes, instead of the common black that can get boring if you wear them too much.

and on halloween, we'll all wear our halloween costumes for classes, hahah that was what the last year foundation students did and i thought it was really fun!

then on christmas, we can all wear santa claus hats for classes and the pianist will play all the christmas carols for our barre exercises and centre work haha!

anyway, went down to costumes connection to collect the leotards for ebird and i.

love my leotard(:

and i still don't know if i should buy new dance shoes or not, i'm kind of broke, so many things to pay for haha

and went to douby ghaut to meet up with wanling, christabel, limin, germaine, jingwen and munling to celebrate christabel's birthday.

it's always great being with them and we always have fun. i love going out with them! and its really rare for us to go out since everyone is so busy with their school and everything.
but we'll go out when it is someone's birthday, love that

had sushi for dinner and some really nice brownies as bel's cake.

i had a great night (:

credits to munling for the picture

Brownies!

2008-08-10T21:40:00.013+08:00

Sunday without dance sure feels weird.

and i'm sad that dance next sunday is cancelled as well because of the hua4 die2 photoshoot.
i don't care, i'm going for the earlier class that zhou lei laoshi is teaching.

i feel really out of place when everyone in Honglei is so busy with all the prep for the september concert except for me, i want to be part of it too. i want to perform too.

and i feel like i've been forgotten, i mean even though i haven't even leave yet, people has already erase my existence in their mind. i feel bad.

and HKAPA haven't inform anything about the registration yet, when everything is like two weeks away?

i just really can't wait to start school and dance.

although i'm not looking forward to improvisation class cos i can't choreograph for nuts, i'm still excited to learn more contemp, more ballet, more chinese dance. i really hope that my class will be fun and spontaneous. and goodness can HKAPA please inform me about the registration now????

the entire desire to go to HKAPA has been full waiting, waiting and more waiting.

it gets quite fustrating sometimes.

but i hope it'll be worth it.

anyway, pics of friday's national day celebration in SAJC!

Preparing our model, mr tan, for the costume competition!

HAHA to mr tan's expression!

The class beside ours!

Our crappy and last-minute final product! its just ridiculous haha!

just one of the other class's model

and this is the one that got the few of us laughing! and while waiting at the side, this guy kept adjusting his durian shell bra, i pity him lah haha!

models from various classes

Looyee and me!

lovely class-mates!

08A03! wonderful class (:

2008-08-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSE!
i love you lougong!
hope you had fun today (:

and ofcourse, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

went for huay kuan today.
it was short but nice!
i'll really miss huay kuan when i leave
haha anyway today we didn't do any barres, didn't do any turns and jumps.
we did more flips and learnt some new stuffs. quite fun! i'm gonna try it again next time ahha!
at the end we gathered around the tv to watch some dance videos and some people are just freaky ahha.

i'm so bored now that i don't feel like blogging.

today is the only day that i'll get to dance this week.
i'm getting rusty! and i'm not improving much now..

and zls and dinghong laoshi kept telling me that i'll suffer in hkapa if i don't improve now, but its not like i don't want to improve or what. sometimes i'm really trying already, i don't know why i'm still so lousy. okay maybe i'm not trying hard enough, crap now i'm feeling lousy about myself..

really need to buck up liao Li Ruimin.

anyway, i'm still looking forward to
4 contemp classes a week
4 ballet classes a week
4 chinese dance classes a week
and loads of other classes (:

2008-08-09T11:56:00.003+08:00

Superb techniques.
BDA people are crazily good!
okay my blogskin cuts off the right side of the video, so double click it to watch it in youtube!

2008-08-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

had national day celebrations in sajc today
it was basically the costume competition and sing-along sessions
i think our class's costume for mr tan was really very crappy haha!
anyway laughed like crazy during the costume parade cos there were really a lot of funny and interesting costumes by the other classes.
after that just sang the national day songs, and it was then i remembered last year's national day celebration back at xinmin.
that was definately the best national day celebration in xinmin, it was so high and happy!
its already into eight months of leaving xinmin and i still miss xinmin...

after that went to have lunch with limin,
we decided to go to amk hub for a short walk after eating, but we walked for really long!
went to limin's house to slack and both of us were so sleepy lah haha
so we both slept. and we wanted to sleep for only an hour, but in the end limin went to off her alarm and went back to sleep, so we ended up sleeping for three hours. haha!
but it felt so shuang after that when we woke up lah

and now i'm having trouble sleeping.

i can't wait for school to start and be able to dance everyday!

2008-08-07T19:56:00.003+08:00

went for the X-ray today, everything was so fast.
i stepped into the clinic and not even 5 mins, i'm done already.
i went to register, waited for 1 min, then went to take the x-ray for 1 min, then i'm done.
haha i still thought i had to wait for quite long..

i think i'm going to sajc tmr, to pass mr tan the form for withdrawal i think..
don't know if time is passing fast or slow.
i'm looking forward to school but yet i don't want to leave Singapore, don't want to leave all my friends, don't want to leave Huay kuan and Honglei.

suddenly, i feel like i'm so looking forward to huay kuan. haha

anyway on tuesday when i was back at XMCD,
and zls was like saying that the choreographer of "yellow river" was her classmate back at BDA,
i was like wow. haha and then i had this sudden urge to watch "yellow river" again, so i went to watch it, since the last time i watched it was really long ago.
found out that the cheoreographer is a guy called Yao Yong, and he has his own company in California now, called YaoYongDance
His wife is a master teacher there and she used to teach at HKAPA! haha yay

i like "yellow river"
this is Act IV of "yellow river" by BDA
good techniques! haha but i'm not that surprised because we're talking about BDA here! obviously they are good

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUwYyZV9g6I

enjoy (:

2008-08-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

today i finally had the chance to wake up as late as i want,
so i just slept through the whole morning and its like so shuang!

then in the afternoon i left to go for my medical check-up,
well it was quite fun actually.
took height and weight, checked my eyes, ears, throat, stomach, pressure, colour blindness, spine and many others.
then had to draw my blood to check my blood count.
well it was a lot less painer than i had expected. and i totally saw the entire process,
like how the needle went in, how the blood started flowing through the tube and filled it up.
it was quite fun to look at actually, and you don't see this kind of thing everyday right.
anyway it wasn't painful. its not as pain as an ant-bite, so yea, thank god it went fine.

then i went back to XMCD, again..
did normal stuffs. it was boing actually,
learnt more tao yao. love that dance as always.
i love my dance-mates. lets go out soon! before there won't be anymore chance.
my flight is on 26 august 7pm, i'll probably reach around 5 but nicole toh can't come to send me off cos she will be having dance at XMCD! oh man, so we must go out soon okay!!

after that, i realised that i was going to be late for Zuyou's birthday surprise
so i took a cab that cost me a bomb.
reached huay kuan and met up with the others in the dance room. set up the cake and everything.
then we just sat around and chat while waiting for Zuyou to come, then i realised that i actually don't need to take cab one lor, cos we waited for Zuyou for so long! i think if i took a bus i will still be able to reach before he comes. but anyway it was nice sitting in huaykuan like this waiting..so yup, i'm fine haha.
then Zuyou came and we surprised him! His reaction was funny and quite shocked.
took photos and crapped a lot. then opened the presents and crapped a lot again. and we had a mini cake fight after that and it was so funny cos everyone was running around the dance room. and we were all like we wanted to play but yet we don't want to dirty the dance room.
and some people used the performance props as shield so that they won't get hit cos no one will dare to throw the cake at the props and ruin the props.
in the end, the dance room was still dirtied haha!
then everyone helped to clean up the cake on the floor, mopped it and then slacked around again before deciding to leave.

had fun today.
i love huay kuan people (:

and i can't wait to start school soon, i want to dance everyday and be tired at the end of the day feeling accomplished cos you've survive so many tiring yet wonderful dance classes!

2008-08-05T21:40:00.003+08:00

managed to wake up early in the morning to take the bus to school!
well, today only had PE and Econs, which is exactly why i went to sch, cos its so slack!
anyway for PE we learnt the Aces day dance, erm it was okay, quite funny! i think my class rocks!
then we slacked and talked until the canteen was cleared, went to have lunch and then went for Econs,
i was stoning throughout the class, totally lost after one week of missing school, but its okay, cos i don't need to know whats exactly going on in Econs.
then after that slacked around and went back to XMCD!

was there quite early so met up with limn, jocelyn and joey,
we walked around, sat at the swing to talk, then went to the dance room early
elizabeth came after her class and then we just talked until zls came.
well we practised with XMCD today, it was quite okay, just normal ji1 ben3 gong1
i always have this secret desire to favour my better leg everytime i train, CANNOT! must love my right leg more and my left back more haha
after ji1 ben3 gong1 we learnt tao yao, i love that dance, sad that i won't be able to learn it.

after that, elizabeth came to my house and we just slacked, laughing at our younger self.

i really love all my friends (:

i think i'm going for my medical thing tmr, oh no, i'm scared of needles!!!

P.S. i don't know what has been troubling you, i miss you a lot. Although i know that you are feeling awful now, i just hope that we'll be able to spend more time together.

2008-08-04T19:02:00.002+08:00

so i went to school today in the afternoon to try to get some more signatures for my withdrawal from, haven't found everyone to sign yet, but i did managed to find some..
anyway i'm going to school tmr cos i heard that tmr is very slack cos a lot of the lessons are cancelled and also cos can play games during PE haha.

felt good when i went to sajc today, i love my class!
i missed 08A03 in the past week and i'm just happy to see them again today (:
i realised that i have to take bus to school tmr morning cos my dad is overseas.
which means waking up extra early haha, but its okay, since i've missed school for the past one week.

then i left and meet ebird at lasalle, saw mervin at nafa and chatted while waiting for ebird
ahha had dinner with ebird and heard all about the first day in lasalle.
and i realised that there is another girl from Honglei dance that went to lasalle dance too.
small world.

i have three weeks left in Singapore, so fast lah..

2008-08-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

i've been eating too much,
i just ate too much rubbish today and i can't stop!

anyway, had Dinghong laoshi's class today
today is definately not my day to dance.
nothing much to say for class today cos i was just lousy, lousy and lousy
hmm but i thought that the liao1 tui3 da4 tiao4 music was nice haha

anyway went to meet limin later on and practically spent the rest of the day with her.
we slacked and just went around, walked to sonata to check out the dance shoes and i realised that they actually sell double sole leather dance shoes! i want lor, but cannot find a proper size..hais.
anyway, walked to nafa then.
we watched francine, sophia, claudia and wern chieh in their class,
i think it was weird for both of us to be sitting there haha,
anyway had make-up nafa class later on,
but it went by really fast cos we just did the zhang4 zu 2 wu3
there were very little people who turned up today too,
i think that the nafa class atmosphere is so not conducive at all.
but anyway i still love my nafa classmates (:

other than the fact i was lousy during Dinghong laoshi's class today, i enjoyed today,
i'm really thankful to have wonderful friends.
but the thought of me going to leave all of them soon really gets me quite sad.

as much as i'm excited to study in the hongkong academy of performing arts,
i'm just having this very empty feeling cos i'll have to leave all the things i love here.
well, i'm scared.
its weird having to feel excited yet scared of whats in store for me.
i'll be all alone then, i hope i'll pull through everything...
i know i'm such a worrisome freak cos i worry about everything constantly,
but this time i'm just afraid of the new environment, new people, new life.
i hope that i'll be able to make friends there (:

okay i'm starting to miss all my friends already.

P.S. hey its been long, i know we've both been busy with our lives, but i hope we'll go out really really soon yah, and a special day is coming too. i wanna go out with the three of us again! <3

2008-08-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

huaykuan today was great.
elizabeth and i reach SUPER early haha,
although zuyou was earlier haha.
so we had a long time to slack before class started haha.
anyway, lesson was going normal and nice today,

then towards the end, all the girls when away for their rehearsal,
elizabeth and i were the only girls left, with all the other 5 guys
so we just continued and then at the end when we were doing across the floor with the guys, it was crazy.
cos there were a few of us left and everyone is doing eveything like so quickly.
its like one after the other and so fast lah!
then after that laoshi came in and we did some endurance thingy.
after the class, i was just...tired, haha

but i love it!
training with the guys today is good training haha (:

hmm i'm still thinking if i should go to school on monday or not, cos i need to do my medical check-up for HKAPA to send the form there.
and now its my turn for one month of nothing-to-do and ebird's turn for school.

and this girl is the shorter lead in sui4 yue4 ru2 ge1
this is her performance at the 8th taoli cup competition
her techniques are good!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poN4Tbb7zlQ

and this is her technique display at the 8th taoli cup competition
and by the way, when she was ban1-ing her left side leg, she was on demi-pointe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kf07qtp_A60

she got second place.
her techniques are clean lah!

i'm so jealous!

2008-08-02T00:33:00.008+08:00

Pictures from the concert!

joey, limin, me and elizabeth:

limin, nicole, me, joey and elizabeth!

i love xinmin dancers! :

NAFA dance-mates! :

I seriously love all of them!

can't wait for dance classes!! (:

2008-08-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

woke up today and went to elizabeth's house to slack awhile,

then went off to meet joey and limin at bugis, we went to golden landmark to get dance stuffs.

joey and limin bought the wine colour nafa leotard that zls wanted all of us to change into.

and i decided to get a black leotard instead of a dark blue one, i hope i don't regret! but anyway i think they will take super long to make it cos they are "busy"

i wanna get double sole leather dance shoes! but Singapore doesn't sell them. unless you order i think.

i don't know what dance stuffs i should get for school! i don't even know what the people there usually wear for classes..

anyway, later on we had to rush home to change and everything cos we were suppose to meet nicole even though its actually impossible to meet her cos there is no time at all.

and we all ended up in limin's house, just slacked a while then we went to cityhall for dinner.

when we reached esplanade, it was still quite early so we just sat and talk and waited for nicole.

saw a lot of people there, from huay kuan, from honglei.

haha don't really want to comment of the concert cos there is too many things to say about it.

but yay i enjoyed today!

i simply love my dance-mates a lot! (:

2008-08-01T00:38:00.001+08:00

i just realised that it's past midnight and its friday.
so....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

love,
twin (:

2008-08-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

back from cruise.

well these five days were spent mostly on stoning and watching tv on the cruise cos there isn't really much to do on superstar aquarius.
i think that superstar virgo was much better.
anyway had stopovers in penang and phuket, so just went down to walk around with my mum and its kind of boring too.
its not that i don't appreciate this trip or what, its just that there really isn't much to do there.
but at least, i rather do nothing and watch tv most of the time than to go to SAJC and stone through all the lectures, tutorials and free periods.
i love the tv in the room cos there are so many nice channels to watch!

it's great that the weather was good throughout, not too hot on the cruise.
but during the stopover at phuket, the sun was just killing.
it was freaking hot lah

i think the most memorable thing is the waiting time to board the ship and to leave the ship.
during boarding, you literally stand there for 2 hours waiting to get on board.
and while waiting to get off the ship, we sat down for another 2 hours.
during this period of time, there is nothing to do, except to talk, and i don't have that much to talk since i'm like alone. well there are my parents but there isn't anything really to talk about and both are busy with their own stuffs. besides, everyone was sianned by the waiting time.

i think my stoning power totally level-ed up by ten times.

but the food there was great and it was NEVER-ENDING
i'll get really fat if i stay there any longer, cos you eat a hundred times more than you burn it out.

anyway, i'm happy to be back here at home.
during the evening, went out with elizabeth and my maid, just went to walk around at bugis street and then bought some dance stuffs there.
then we walked to marina square to meet my mum for the free movie that the company my dad is working in paid for.
we were 10 mins late and my mum was really really angry, but aiyah, i know that its like my fault but i don't know why she made such a BIG fuss over it. and the nagging just keeps going on and on from the moment we met at the cinema until in the car on the way home.
my mum was like scolding me about how bad my time managment was cos i was late for the movie and that she can never trust me anymore cos i was late this time. then about how not-independant i am cos i can't even manage my time properly, so that means that i can't survive alone in hongkong because time management is even more important when you are alone.
well, i get what she is trying to tell me, but if you just judge my time managebility just by this once when i'm late for the movie, then i think that you are wrong.
i mean if i really have zero time managebility, then why would i be able to make it for my dance classes, for my lectures and tutorials, for meetings with friends.
yes i was late for a few occasions but i apologize for them because sometimes you are just late, but thats the minority.
argh, enough of this, i'm guess i'm just being a grumpy little brat right now.

so, anyway.
i still enjoyed today cos of the catch-up with elizabeth.
i love having such great friends.
and tmr shall be great too cos i'm going out with elizabeth, limin, joey and nicole!
we are going to buy stuffs first then go watch the nanyang dance night at the esplanade together.
there is group photo-taking for NAFA class at esplanade tmr too

and i'm not going to school tmr (:

my parents allow me to withdraw from school already and they even wrote the letter and printed out the stuffs.
yay i can finally withdraw.
after sssoooooooooooooooo long (:

2008-07-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

i'm leaving tmr morning and i haven't packed yet.
haha a really bad habit of mine, always doing last minute packing
i shall do it later while watching "guess guess guess" haha

today i was super early for huay kuan haha! yay.
i was the first girl there, when i went in, zhong laoshi and zuyou were watching some dance cum singing show.
HAHA ZINA TAN I"M STILL EARLIER THAN YOU.
class was funny, huay kuan people are nice people to be around with! haha
but my left pelvis is hurting, not aching but hurting, which is quite bad cos every develope i do its pain. i also don't know what is it, its like internal pain. i really hope that it will recover soon..
we finally did ti1 tui3 today, and when we were going the pian4 tui3 thing my left pelvis was going "cluck" every time i do one and it kind of hurts sometimes, whats wrong man..

after class went for elizabeth's church BBQ, it was quite okay haha, food was nice and we played this game called "1,2,3, jump" chatted, ate and then went home haha!

I still can't acept the fact that i'll be missing Dinghong laoshi's class and "ballet under the stars" tmr, I WANT TO GO FOR CLASS AND CONCERT!!!

i hope i don't have to go to school next friday.